wilL's life

one man race

2009-06-23T09:22:00.000-07:00

i wonder how long more can i take running this race.it's especially tiring running it alone.felt cheated into it.but well...shall try to make it as good as possible since i decided to take it up...1 more month to see some results.

2009-05-29T06:38:00.000-07:00

跌倒了，真的爬得起来吗？

of recess,mid-terms n a bomb

2009-03-06T09:15:00.000-08:00

recess week came n passed.
so did mid-terms.well...screwed up some,not many papers to begin with...haix.it's all about ur capabilities...if u're there,u're there...as long as i think i did myself justice den tt's fine...
oh.on tuesday,i was on my way home when i came across a strange scene.the road directly outside my house was on a road block,with a fire engine,an ambulance and lots of police vehicles on stand-by at the nearby NUS high school carpark.there were army trucks at the construction site opposite my place,at the site where my future home will stand.totally clueless abt wad's happening until a passer-by told me tt they discovered a WWII blind while digging at the construction site.haha.den around 5.30pm, there was a loud explosive noise followed by a small cloud of explosion dust.they detonated the bomb at the site!quite interesting experience to hear a WWII bomb go off,especially with us civilians in the surrounding.haha.to think we have lived with this blind for so many years.lol.
from wad i recall, the site used to be some abandoned houses with a vet clinic.when i was in primary school,our teacher brought us in there to look for samples of vegetation.haha.the houses were taken down quite some time ago and the land was left there until nan hua high sch was built ard 8 years ago n now new hdb flats building in progress.

recess week!

2009-02-22T00:17:00.000-08:00

nightmare Z for Zusammen ended yesterday, well sort of ended.the aftermath is not any much better but at least the worse is over. moral of the story:never attempt something out of ur capabilities.
last week was quite horrible for me, with 3 tutorials to do, one lab report one lab assignment and one graded essay due during the week, zusammen on saturday which meant meetings, phonecalls and more meetings.
finally have time for myself. recess week! need to catch up on school work. seriously lagging behind. plus 3 back-to-back tests after recess week. omg.

where's the motivation?

2009-01-30T20:57:00.000-08:00

probably still in the Chinese New Year mood.haha.totally cant find the motivation to study even though the amount of stuff i should read and do have been piling up.tutorials,assignments and labs...barely 3 weeks into school and i'm starting to not understand the lecturers already.somehow stuff that i read just goes in and comes out the next minute.need to pay more attention!!!
rather tied-down by ChESS and bizcom stuff.i spend about an hour reading and replying mails everyday.haha.handling a project is not as easy as it seems,probably due to the lack of an established team.well...it's always harder the 1st year/1st time something is done.just hope to get it over and done with soon(of cos nicely too!) so i can start focusing on my studies.seriously worried about this semester.
focus focus!

happy 牛 year!

2009-01-25T07:24:00.000-08:00

once again it's the chinese new year.haha.where has all the excitement gone to man.seriously.chinese new year is getting less exciting by the years.when u're still a kid,chinese new year is like the second most exciting day of the year,the most exciting being ur birthday.haha.but i realised as one ages,the excitement level depletes by the year.haha.
perhaps it's due to the chores involved before the festival.haha.have been helping out with the house chores lately which tires one out seriously.so,kudos to all mums and maids around slogging the hearts out for the festival.haha.
perhaps it's due to the unfavourable economic condition,with the govt declaring usage of its reserves.
perhaps it's due to tutorials waiting for me on my study desk with piles of lecture notes waiting for me to digest,barely 2 weeks since term started.
perhaps perhaps perhaps.how to indulge myself with the festive spirit?haha.
was chatting with one of my ex-colleagues over msn earlier.she hasn't found work ever since she left the company last april.she's full-time mum to her 2 puppies now.enjoying her life.haha.how many here can actually have the luxury of not working for more than 8 months?lol.sometimes not doing anything is a luxury itself,but definitely not for too long.haha.
well...happy 牛 year to all!!may everyone have a wonderful year ahead!

school's starting again.

2009-01-11T08:32:00.000-08:00

here comes monday 12th jan '09.time for school again after 1 week of CORS, which is a very screwed up system that nus uses for their students to bid for modules n ballot for tutorials.modules are more or less settled,left with tutorials to ballot.here comes the headache again.need to fit in 2 labs and 2 tutorials to my already very heavy timetable.haix.sometimes i really wonder if i got myself in the wrong course.

it had to come

2008-12-23T23:13:00.000-08:00

well.wad's meant to be had to be.didnt dare face the music at first.procastinated the whole day.partly because i was at work.so i only checked it at night,very much unwillingly.
didnt do very well.didnt expect too much from the start.but when u know it,it's nv good enough.way below expectations for some modules.dunno how it became like tt.but it's all over.time to look at the next sem's stuff.gotta pull up my socks, really high.
on the lighter note,merry christmas to all!

boring holidays

2008-12-21T07:17:00.000-08:00

holidays have been rather boring lately.running out of stuff to do.
on the my worrying note,results r coming out in slightly more than a day's time.omg.i'm not prepared for it yet.i'm still not planning for next sem yet.hmm.need to do some concrete planning after xmas.bleah.

another reminder tt i'm an nsman

2008-12-12T09:23:00.000-08:00

just when i tot that i may be free from my ns unit for 4 yrs due to my student status,when i received the msg telling me my Feb high key was cancelled around 2 weeks ago,i unfortunately got a call from them this afternoon.haix.recall manning's here again.
so is there such a directive saying tt local uni students r only required to meet ippt requirements?hmm.will need to work on tt this semester break.
working on some other sch projects for next sem too.haha.but i seriously need another pasttime.bleah.

1 year after ord

2008-12-09T07:42:00.000-08:00

exams ended on the 28th nov.have been slacking since then.haha.
time flies.i have ord-ed for a year already.lol.
gng back to my hk drama.haha.

last paper

2008-11-25T23:31:00.000-08:00

woot.finished 3 papers within 2 days.haha.glad tt it's over,but i'm not that optimistic abt results.screwed up quite a bit but well....worrying doesnt help me get better results rite...i would be lying if i say i'm not worried though.haha.last paper on friday den it'll be freedom!haha.i'm quite astonished by the fact that one semester is over so soon.too soon.and in another 5 months or so,it'll be exams again.how scary.
in need of a motivation to push on.

mugging

2008-11-21T10:13:00.000-08:00

2 days to the start of exams.for the past 1 week or so,i have made NUS library my second home,together with many of my fellow schoolmates.in fact probably spending more time there than at home.unfortunately,there's still a lot yet to be done.nth seems to have gotten into my brain.tt's bad news.butterflies gathering in my stomach.
suddenly felt very sick of mugging while mugging in the library today.i think i'm going crazy soon.just want to get it over n done with.
7 days to freedom!!!

1 down,4 to go

2008-11-12T20:57:00.000-08:00

today marks the end of 1 module.haha.no more 5000-word essay writing,clicker-questions tutorial n term tests.haha.with 1 week to go for my remaining 4 modules,i feel so unprepared.i know it's coming but i cant help but want to slack.somehow the motivation just isnt there.where's the driving force?
need to start studying soon.
need a life after exams too.anyone with plans n wants to rope me in,pls feel free to contact me.haha.

好累

2008-10-21T09:15:00.000-07:00

几年不见，发现你仿佛变了一个人似的。是你真的变了，还是我对你有所保留？还是变的人是我？同样的人，不同的交流方式，感觉好奇怪。我想是被环境所逼吧。在这个分秒必争的社会里，人人都对彼此有所保留。有时，我比较喜欢独来独往，自由多了，但人总需要朋友。
突然觉得好累。开学到现在好像没好好休息过。好期待假期的到来却又不想面对假期前的那一战。大学生活并没想像的那么轻松自在。

recess week

2008-09-18T07:42:00.000-07:00

recess week is here!seriously in need of the break to catch a breather n of cos to catch up on studying.i'm so lagging behind others.all the lectures tt do no make sense to me,all the tutorials tt leave me helpless,always rushing tutorials n readings for the coming tutorials while others r already 2 or 3 tutorials ahead.am i slow or are they fast?i think i'm just dumb.
勤能补拙？

updates!

2008-09-02T06:42:00.000-07:00

went for rvco concert 知音IV last saturday.hmm.quite heartwarming to see so many familiar faces.mostly whom i cant put a name to(opps).haha.it was quite obvious that the 管乐section alumni is so much more enthu.so many of them turned up.oh.most of us agreed that the standard was not as high as previous years.dunno if it's just us (cos we left rvco alr) or is it really the case.haha.the best piece was of cos 爱诗曲!it's like our signature piece already.haha.makes me want to pick up my 二胡again.haha.but dun think i'm joining NUSCO as a cca.will wish to play with them during concerts n stuff.but not sure if it's ok or not.haha.shall see how ba.sch work itself is bad enough already.
well...5 modules is more than enough to kill someone who has lost touch with books for more than 2 years.seriously.all the maths,readings n boring lectures r deadly.not to mention the extra effort required to understand the lecturer's language(most singapore uni students shd know why)lol.it's the 4th week of sch alr.which means mid-terms r round the corner.the tot of taking tests n exams is rather scary.need to pull up my socks liao.time to read my notes,practice more maths qns,finish up my readings n do up my assignment tt is due in 2 weeks time.OMG.so much to do with so little time.seriously.the amt of work is overwhelming.maybe i'm just slow n stupid.so many ard me have alr completed their tutorials(up to tutorial 10?),finished their readings,halfway through work tt is due in 1 month's time.so screwed rite?i dun understand how ppl do it lor.staying near sch is not helping at all.bleah.
i got myself into nussu bizcom.supposed to be a fun cca.well.but tt means commitments too.hope i can find the balance between studies n cca,not compromising on anyone.hope i didnt just kill my CAP.haha.still dunno exactly wad's installed for me.shall see after the camp this friday.haha.
i need to MUG.

1st week of sch

2008-08-12T08:25:00.000-07:00

holidays r out n school's in.haha.still getting familarised w nus.quite big campus n it's a chore getting from place to place.especially this sem cos i have lessons all over campus.engine,arts n biz on one side of the campus not forgetting science on the other side of the campus.haha.well.it's a pity i didnt get eg1413 this sem.not enough luck.so i have to do an SS n another GEM module.
it's just lectures these 2 weeks n tutorials only start from week 3.haha.but i'm already quite sick of ivle.we practically log in everyday to check for stuff.some lecturers like to do last-minute uploading of notes.who says students r the only ppl who do last-min stuff?lol.
time to start reading notes.there r ppl who have already completed a few tutorials.omg.

pictures speak

2008-07-31T07:07:00.001-07:00

pictures speak a thousand word.

Last day at DoCoMo interTouch!

junhao n i
me,ivy n ferine
ferine,me,pam n nick
ferine n i

Hk trip:9th to 14th Jul 08

on the plane

i got a pie!

on the bus to ocean park
one of the escalators in ocean park
high 5!
cable car in ocean park

i high-5-ed a panda!
snatching away its bamboo
the peak
bus

the buddha @ lantau island
ngong ping 360-great view!

Bkk trip: 23rd to 26th Jul 08

A&W-deprived singaporeans go bkk for A&W
dream world!

giant's house roller-coaster
cam-tricks

28th Jul 08:Vincent's farewell dinner

group photo

vincent n i

me,vin n wL

and of cos there's still ChESS Freshmen Welcome Camp from 15th to 18th jul.well,tt will have to wait till i get the pictures.haha.

vincent:no overdose of "haha" in this entry.lol.

2 months update

2008-07-06T02:12:00.000-07:00

another 2 months flew by just like that.we're officially left with less than a month away from the much-anticipated-yet-dreaded start of sch.haha.tt's definitely another impt milestone in life.cant really believe tt i've worked for more than 6 months.haha.time really flies.quite some changes i've seen.haha.my last day there will be tuesday!haha.den it'll be really holiday for me.haha.hk trip followed by ChESS camp.haha.not really looking forward to the camp after doing some stupid stuff on friday for company event.haha.the tot of doing some dumb stuff puts me off a little.but need to know more pple so still muz go for camp.haha.
well.now tt i'm officially 21.haha.so?anyway,still want to thank my friends for making the day and the previous evening so memorable for me.dinner,movie plus stayover at my place w junhao,crystal n mabel.den it was flyer n dinner with bmt pals.great fun,wonderful memories.not forgetting all my friends for the well-wishes thru sms,msn n our beloved facebook.haha.it has no doubt become an impt part of our life.even u-noe-who's adopting facebook.haha.pictures will come some other time.haha.if i'm free.rather hectic these few days.rushing to end work!haha.

hot weather

2008-05-06T08:52:00.000-07:00

weather these days r horribly hot.to think 2 or 3 weeks ago it was pouring everyday.now it's so hot n sunny all day long.driving all of us crazy.nice weather to chill out(sounds ironic) if u want a tan,but it's kind of disturbing when a walk to the bus stop makes u sweat like a pig.spoils our mood for other activities.lots of ppl falling sick.
once again it's the season of giving out scholarships n stuff.talking abt this,i suddenly came to realise that a significant number of ppl around me are actually going to be civil servants.mostly teachers.n they are making civil service sound really attractive.haha.most of them r sponsored for their studies.well.just because they are going into a profession that the nation's interested in,they are getting their uni fees paid for while ppl like us whose future jobs r more likely seeked after by private firms will be in-debts upon graduation.are we worthless to the society?or maybe i shd say,are they that important to the society that justifies tax-payers paying for their schooling?no one's gonna deny that a good number of them r just going to leave the service after the minimum bond length.let's not forget abt those who dun even bother to serve.
work's getting a little confusing now that i'm starting to bill our customers.must be more careful now cos we're talking about customers,no longer vendors.tt's the difference between AP n AR.well.still some time to consider if i wanna stay in this place.discussion's next week.invoicing nightmare shd end this week,hopefully.haha.shall leave the headache to tmr.i need a good night's sleep.
overseas trip still unsettled.no one's confirming anything.no one's ready to sit down to make decisions.so be it.

handover

2008-04-25T08:36:00.000-07:00

well...the long awaited perm staff tt i was filling in for is here finally.haha.1 week into the job but i guess she's equally confused as i am when i'm fresh to the company.haha.to think they got me to "teach" her wad to do...the whole office is toking abt a temp teaching a perm.bleah.now tt i am supposed to hand over wad i've been doing to her,i'm supposed to move on to another portfolio due to the leaving of ANOTHER perm.turn-over rate quite high.so these few days i've been rather relaxed.haha.i just need to guide her.but then again,the problem of 2 person doing the same thing is tt we're both not used to each other's style...haha.the worse thing is...i havent handed over everything to her...complete transition is quite impossible within 1 week.all the stuff i learnt in 3 months must teach her in 1 week.how to absorb...n to think i have to understudy the other perm for 3 days to learn everything...mission impossible!!

interview

2008-04-14T05:37:00.000-07:00

felt i did ok.not the really impressive kind but still presentable i guess.had to be honest.but well...myself feeling ok just isnt enough....can only leave it to fate now.
in doubt.

work again

2008-03-25T08:45:00.000-07:00

well well.signed my 1st monthly timesheet today.den my supervisor exclaimed,"u worked so many ot this month ar?!?!"yup yup.wad else can i say.something is obviously wrong when ur temp has to work more than 1 week of ot per month rite.haha.not tt i'm not ok with doing ot but it's seriously getting more n more demoralising.esp this month with the auditors.giving us more work to add on to our already full to-do-list.haha.it seems to me that pple in accounting have no/little social life.wad kind of social life do u consider when they go back to office to work on saturdays and sundays.it's worse for those with children.it's a family-unfriendly working world we have here.

i know that chances are slim.
just trying to buy myself some hope.
the world is still a nice place to live in rite?
seriously need a breather.

in search of a meaning

2008-03-13T08:58:00.000-07:00

sometimes i wonder,wad am i trying to get out of life these few months...why am i working so hard when wad i'm learning and doing now may not be wad i will be doing in future...wad am i trying to get out of this job...am i just wasting time here...sometimes working is just plain boring...meaningless...maybe i should take a break or go somewhere for holiday...thailand or hong kong anyone?

license

2008-02-11T07:38:00.000-08:00

went down to kaki bukit camp early in the morning to complete my paperwork for converting my military driving license to a civilian class 3 license.den rushed down to ssdc for license application.so now i'm officially a qualified class 3 veh driver.
thinking back,the journey to this wasnt easy.i've upset some pple,directly or indirectly.some say i took away their chances.some took away their own chances of conversion.well...for a dual vocationalist,it's a great achievement to come this far.of cos it wun be possible without help from others.they may not be reading this but i still wanna express my gratitude.first of all,my OC was really a great help.giving me countless driving details for me to complete my last lap of clocking the 7000km.2ndly,i oso have to thank ppl like sgt loy-transport ic,ps sgt yue hong n of cos peiyi.without them i wun even be near 7000km by the last few months of service.i oso cant forget my batch guys-vincent,kai ming,wei liang,heow hui,zhao feng,etc.for me u guys have given up ur chances of the conversion.u guys are also constantly on the look-out for details for me.thanks guys!without u guys,it would be impossible for me to come this far.once again,thank you guys!it's my fortune to have met u all.

week

2008-02-01T08:24:00.001-08:00

sometimes really feel quite sian of working.but dun work means no income.it's a tough decision.i find the working environment quite ok.pple r generally nice when things r gng the right way.i just dun like the feeling of getting blamed at any mistakes spotted,be it my fault or not.everytime something seems not right,they'll start pointing fingers at me when i dun even know wad's gng on at all.i'm not saying tt i dun make mistakes.i do,but definitely not ALL were made by me n not ALL were my fault lor.they dun even bother to investigate before putting the blame to me.it just sucks.so many occasions le lor.i want justice back.the only excuse i can give them is tt they dun wanna risk chances of promotion since as a temp there's no promotion to speak of,so the easiest target will be me lor.bleah.other than this i still quite like the environment there.n i'm more or less familar with the system there already.change will result in some uncertainty again,which is even more undesirable for me.
on the lighter note,for ppl who r concerned,i finally got the call from kbc to go down on 11th feb to complete my application of my conversion of military license to civilian driving license.yups.so hopefully i'll be a qualified driver on then.haha.tt'll wait till 11th feb,once everything's confirmed.
to everyone,HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!!!

2008-01-23T06:34:00.000-08:00

opps!one month since my last post.haha.it's the new year!maybe it's not so new at this point of time but it's my first post in 2008!lol.the past weeks were spent working.i'm working at this jap mnc company tt deals with broadband internet for hotels around the world.on paper my jobscope is a data entry job,but in fact i'm doing sai kang lor.creating files for payment lists,invoices,post invoices,post payments,issue cheques,internet banking,photocopying tonnes of documents,n the list goes on n on...haha.it's interesting at first cos things r new.people i'm working are quite nice,very willing to teach-cos i'm doing their stuff mah.lol.well,after 3 long weeks of working i only found out yesterday tt i actually have an email acc under the company's name.lol.but with the discovery of tt comes more sai kang from them.but one interesting thing is tt my title is an assistant accountant,when i'm working under an accounts clerk(accounts clerk is supposed to work FOR an assistant accountant)lol.wad a screw up.but who cares?

this year is gonna be filled with birthday celebrations-21st mah.so everyone's like celebrating them big time.first and foremost,crystal's birthday!we went for dinner at an italian restaurant then we "headed" home.but ended up surprising her at her house at 12 midnight.haha.

hmm.these days i've been watching 超級星光大道 season 2 on youtube.quite interesting to see the conpetition.most importantly i'm enjoying their music.they really can sing lor.standard much higher than singapore's project superstar or singapore idol.quite attracted to their theme song,星空 by energy.

雨覆盖了这片天空

熙来攘往的人群中

这曾经转动了

你和我不期而遇的时钟

仿佛听见你呼吸的节奏

有种莫名想拥抱的冲动

感受肩并肩的温柔

一起等今夜的星空

着幸福不停发酵

就在时间静止的时候

此刻

雨过后晴朗的天空

划过一道印着你笑容的彩虹

想对你说

你就是我的星空闪

烁灿烂的笑容

给我温暖让我度过寒冬

你给的感动总是点亮整个宇宙

放送一幅完美幸福轮廓

想对你说

你就是我的星空

不分黑夜或白昼

陪我熬过每一次的失落

美丽的故事让我与你一起守侯

永久将他烙印在我心中

幸福的逗留

i think the song is really appropriate for such a show.quite touching.come to think about it,how many people are really blessed to pursue our interest as a career?these people are really living their dreams.

oh!chinese new year is round the corner!lol.time for some serious cleaning.haha.kk.gng back to my show le.

ord trip!

2007-12-20T07:59:00.000-08:00

back from a short ord trip to taipei + bangkok with a few of my army pals-wL,hh n vincent. frankly speaking it's just an ok trip.rather disappointed with taipei's weather--not cold enough!!haha.was expecting something colder.the wind only came on the day before departure.argh.haha.one thing tt surprised us is tt the people there are dressed for winter when the outdoor temperatures can be higher than indoor temp.haha.

we visited some of the tourist attractions like the chiang kai shek memorial hall,taipei storyland,101,shih lin night market,etc.

shopping was a disaster cos of the weather.long-sleeves n jackets were aplenty but not the stuff that we need in the tropics here.haha.we travelled around in taipei by the mrt.was quite impressed by their mrt system.convenient n frequent.we seldom wait more than 4 mins for a train to arrive.their train etique is oso respectable.so is their escalator etique.take my hats off them.more pics on facebook!

bangkok was a short stay.thankfully we had vincent's friend drive us around on the busy streets of bangkok.saw the lightings for their king's 80th birthday.a really grand event there.well.this trip is a nice break from singapore.quite fun.

well...now it's time to hunt for job.haha.

ord lo!

2007-12-08T09:41:00.000-08:00

haha.finally here.the long awaited day-081207!
ORD lo!!

2007-11-08T03:43:00.000-08:00

well well...ord is still a month away.i know these few days is the ord season but not yet for me.anw.congrats for those who have ord-ed.must have been waiting for this day since dunno when.haha.the beginning of another chapter in life.watching them ord isnt such a nice feeling but of cos there's still a pinch of happiness for them.
to the few whom i've been working with for the past 1 and a half year:
thanks for everything
the friendship
the company
the happy times we've had together
and of course
the differences
the disaggrements
the lessons learnt
i guess tt's part of the ns package,meeting new people,some tt we relate well to as well as some tt we do not work so well with.with the closing of this chapter of your life,i hope tt's not the end of our friendship.we still have a long way to go in life.singapore is not a big place so we're bound to meet one another.n i hope if tt happens,we can still greet each other with at least an acknowledgement nod or even a smile on our faces.
as for driving,i'm getting close to 7k.100 odd away only.lol.everyone's saying tt getting the license is not a problem given my situation now.well...dun dare to think too much now.getting the 7k shdnt be a problem.i'm more worried about the application process.being more or less familiar with how this organisation works,it's usually application tt is more an issue.full of red tapes n bottlenecks.for all u know the completed for may just lie on someone's desk for years before it's uncovered.bleah.keeping my fingers crossed.
these few weeks i'm having a long break from camp,taking it as a rest before last exercise.haha.as well as an early civilian conversion course.gearing up for ord.haha.packing my room n things like tt.lol.i can sense nus waiting for me.haha.
finished watching a hk serial,Heart of Greed,溏心風暴.I think it's really nice and touching.it talks about how a family almost breaqking apart because of a family member eyeing the family's assets.greed is indeed one thing tt can bring out evil in humans.money makes the world go round.being rich can be a blessing or a curse.haha.

so near yet so far

2007-10-20T09:29:00.000-07:00

haix.ord is so near yet so far.the past week was occupied with hook up in prep for ex in nov.why am i still involved in exercise when i'm gng to ord real soon n why are there ppl who r ord-ing later than me slacking in bunks with their psps?unfair!!but den again.i do need the driving here and there.coming close to the 7000 le but not so sure if can get it or not.*keeping my fingers crossed.
i dunno why,but looking at the nov batch ppl ord is not so good a feeling afterall.kinda feels sour.wad to do?i try not to think abt it but ppl ard just keep reminding me abt tt fact.oso dunno wad he's trying to do lor.not sian meh always making himself more prone to teasings.well...at least i wun be in camp when they're getting their pink ics.well well...
went for the nus early matriculation talk today.met quite a lot of familiar faces,some tt i can no longer match names to.*guilty*had a nice chat with ji sin.havent seen him for a long time.haha.well...i doubt i'll be matriculating early.want a longer holiday.haha.squeezing a 13 week cse into 6 weeks is gng to be hell lar.dun wanna torture myself b4 sch starts.anw i can really graduate a lot earlier so no point oso mah.

ccac

2007-10-14T02:03:00.000-07:00

sort of finished ccac last week,less the cpr part.hmm.everything except the IV was ok.haha.lessons quite slack.but brian's sure a knowledgeable medic.haha.well.thursday was the much anticipated live IV drip.first time for most of us.i mean being poked by a non-qualified person.haha.it's scary poking people too,esp people u know.kinda feel bad to inflict pain onto ur partner,esp when u failed quite a number of times.missed 3 times n i had no more courage to try again on the same person liao.so i had to search for another hand.haha.all i can say is tt it's definitely not easy.a lot of reassurance has to be given to ur partner,esp the needle holder.i ended up with 4 needle holes.haha.well...it's over finally.haha.hope i wun need to put any of the skills into use.not tt i dunno how to but i dun want to cos tt probably spells trouble for someone.bleah.it's an experience i would say.haha.

understanding ppl

2007-10-07T02:25:00.000-07:00

sometimes i feel tt i'm a lousy judge of character.on some occassion i may feel tt i know someone but on another occassion i cant even recognise tt particular person.used to think X is someone worthy of my trust and tasking cos of mutual respect.but recently things seem to be another case.he cant seem to look at me when i'm talking to him which i feel is a lack of respect to the speaker.is it because of his promotion tt caused to change of attitude i do not know.or perhaps it's tt u've gained the trust of the commanders i do not care.quite disappointed lar.so be it lor.2 more mths n i'm off liao.he's leaving for wallaby anw.dunno if he's still worthy of my befriending or not.
on the lighter note,mset is over.quite a waste of time.but think shdnt be a problem getting the cert ba.haha.the past 2 weeks have been great,slacking n just enjoying doing nth much.haha.friday was battalion anniversary which was spent dragonboating at kallang.didnt think i would enjoy it in the first place but it turned out better than expected.haha.boating left me with a little sore arm n back muscles plus slightly burnt shoulders.haha.
ccac cse coming up.hmm.training to be medics!haha.sometimes i wonder if i'm a signaller,driver or wad.becoming self-sufficient like the commandos or recce troops but much under-paid compared to them.not to mention fitness level lar.haha.next 3 weeks r busy in camp before i get another 3 weeks break while some of my batch ord.hmm.i feel it coming already.haha.

thoughts

2007-09-15T21:44:00.000-07:00

sometimes it seems to me that the longer u think u know one person,the better u think u understand one,the more u do not understand one.happened to me on a few occassions.his actions,words n behaviour often surprise me.maybe time drifts people apart.or maybe it's personal benefits that changes one's actions n behaviours.i guess it's all society's fault.we've become so pragmatic.well.maybe it's just me,thinking a little too naive.haha.give me a simplier world.

post AOH

2007-09-08T22:53:00.000-07:00

well.AOH went well in all.life there wasnt bad i would say.meeting all kinds of people.as well as working with a group of ppl i'm comfortable with.great food.great company.suffered quite a drop in morale while returning back to camp on monday.back to the camp with singapore lousiest cookhouse.boo.many things happened this week,in preparation for wallaby as well as the upcoming range.arrows darted here and there.haha.

while doing my cos duty on thurs,someone actually came up to me and told me straight in my face tt his/her desk was untidy,obviously waiting for me to clear up for him/her.well...a thought suddenly struck me.it seems tt it's suddenly MY fault tt his/her desk is untidy when i wasnt even the one working on tt desk.wad kind of commander are u if u cant even keep ur desk tidy?i'm fine with the cleaning up but it's the blame tt i cant take.wadever.

on the lighter note,we celebrated mabel's birthday on saturday!bought her a huge basket of food for her hall.haha.plus a wallet.

happy birthday mabel!

AOH

2007-09-02T09:04:00.001-07:00

we're officially left with the last lap of the Army Open House '07.everything's gonna end tmr.up to 3 weeks of preparations.haha.quite an eye-opener for me.actually getting to witness as well as participate in the whole open house.this open house is definitely not an event tt one can cover in one day.many things are on-going at the same time.limited tickets are also one problem,esp for mission world n battle ride world.haha.overall i would say tt it's a job well done.had some fun.met a lot of ppl.n did some shit too but it's quite worth it i would say cos it's still an experience...
well...it's back to camp tmr.

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

long weekend

2007-08-11T23:10:00.000-07:00

well...a good long weekend went by just like tt.in a breeze.haha.rushed off to clake quay after book out on wed to meet some councillors for dinner.well.was horribly late n tt place wasnt tt easy to find given limited directions.thank goodness my bus passed by in the right direction so i saw the blue signboard of the restaurant.haha.chat over dinner was good although it was only the 8 of us.great to see the 2 who came back from uk.spent the night after dinner walking around deciding wad to do(it's so us.haha)simply enjoying each others company.
thurs n fri was spent with my another friend who returned from his brunei posting for holiday.haha.went wala wala after dinner at holland v.kinda weird cos topics between us(this group of bmt friends) was getting limited.mainly teasing edwin over his always-changing mind over his uni course.well my friend,follow ur heart.was just at wala wala enjoying the drinks n music plus the topic suddenly made me realise:how many of us really get to do the things we enjoy?most of us r pursuing degrees tt the society likes,which are sometimes way offf our own liking.so much for comparing the pursuit of degree to the pursuit of happiness.are we really happy with wad we are doing?
as of now.i dare say i'm not really happy with wad i'm doing.sometimes it's really hard to find meaning in wad we do.i guess most of the nsfs would agree with me.one of my friends asked me,wad do u all do normally?i was at a lost for words.sometimes work tt we do do not carry any particular significance.are we really doing things just for the sake of doing?making a positive difference isnt tt easy afterall.but i wouldnt say tt ns isnt useful at all cos i picked up certain useful skills n made some good friends.perhaps 2 yrs is a bit too long for us to be fully occupied.
recently came across a wrongdoing of one of my fellows.i wun really consider him as a friend cos i'm not on real good terms with him due to certain conflicts n misunderstandings.there's minimum interaction between us,which may be a better option for us.anyway.i dun really approve of wad he's doing.i noe it was done this way by our seniors but to me i dun think tt's right.it's as good as cheating.to me, it's just a desperate attempt of him to achieve his goal.but the fact is tt there're ppl helping him.bringing the matter up would only implicate those involved n disrupt the little peace between us.well..kinda in a dilemma.maybe he's not wrong afterall.shall not let this spoil my mood further.it's a long week ahead with duty on monday.bleah.

laments

2007-07-15T03:20:00.000-07:00

i realise not everyone is appreciated n of cos not everyone is appreciative.myself inclusive.we're often too obessed with our own opinions tt we view others with our own perspective which sometimes can cause really serious trouble.no matter wad one does may appear ugly to another.indeed.it's definitely more difficult to live with someone else than to work with one.conflicts happen.big n small when u see one another 24hrs 5 days a week.i think it's way too late to savage the situation now.somehow we just cant give way.since it takes both hands to clap,i guess both parties r at fault.to us,u're definitely the one at fault n probably to u,we're the sinners.well.no one wanted it to turn out this way.n it's not benefiting any party.personally i'm seriously tired of giving way to u.we cant just tolerate ur actions n attitude all the time.i'm disgusted.hey.we're all in this together why cant u just be more accommodating.stop putting us in such a difficult situation.it's sickening.
as for fun,i think everyone's way of having fun is different.some work n play,some work hard play hard.i guess we're the latter.it's just our style.perhaps we can be more flexible.perhaps...
somehow days seems to pass really slowly.i need a goal.seriously.this is getting way too boring.give me something to look forward to.

change

2007-06-30T09:29:00.000-07:00

change is the only constant in this world.yea.it's oxy-moronic but i cant help but am astonished by the degree tt it's true.some welcome changes but some resist.for me,i think i'm one who can adapt to changes easily until yesterday,when my dad broke the news to me tt my estate is gng to undergo SERS.some selective en-bloc reconstruction scheme.this piece of news really hit me hard.i've been living in this flat since ive been born n now u're tellin me tt this place will be gone in a few years.hmm.part of me welcome the changes cos of the better facilities offered by the reallocated flats.but part of me is resisting the change cos i'm too comfortable with wad i'm having now.haha.but it futile resisting the change cos it's definitely gng to happen no matter wad.
it den occured to me tt this is not the only part of my memory tt is going to be taken away.my primary sch was relocated n the old campus was demolished n a new sch took over its place.sec sch suffered the same fate too.places tt brings back lots of precious memories just vanish like tt.those were the places where i spent my childhood.those were the institutes tt made me who i am today.n now my home for the past 20 years is gng to give away for redevelopment in 4 years time.heritage is often the loser in the battle with redevelopment.but wad to do.haha.things happen.u noe?haha.dunno lar.mixed feelings.

i'm 20!

2007-06-22T08:39:00.000-07:00

it's the time of the year again.from yesterday,i was officially out of the teens league.in the big 20s.haha.many asked me wad does it feel to be into ur 20s.hmm.it's just another stage of life i guess.slowly moving into adulthood.wait till i turn 21.haha.cant wait for tt to happen cos tt'll mean i'll be entering uni real soon.haha.life at this point of time is quite detestable generally other than weekends where u get to meet up with friends.haha.here comes the pessimistic me.

anw.want to thank all those who made my day yesterday by sending me their greetings.namely,cyrstal,nette,eunice,minghui,yen,jolin,alice,ade,ros,shiqin n limiin.special thanks to di who msg-ed from london.oso my pc peiyi.haha.was quite surprised by tt.haha.spent dinner with my 2sig pals since we're all on off /lv together plus damian's back from his europe tour.haha.had manhattan at ps den we went for pool followed by coffee @ tcc.it was great man.thx for spending my birthday with me.thx for the powerpuff cake!haha.really glad to have found u guys in ns,which makes life so much more tolerable.oso!i wun forget the call i got from office saying i juz got "arrowed" to do guard duty on my way to town.haha.nice one kenny,leonard n steven!not forgetting those who tagged!yongliang,zixu n shaun!haha.thx dudes!

not forgetting the 3 nicest ppl on earth!mabel,junhao n crystal who celebrated my birthday in advance last sunday!really appreciate wad u guys did!thx!the wallet from u guys is nice!thx for the card too!it's really great tt we're still able to stay close after jc.more celebrations to come i hope!(i realise i'm the only nus student-to-be among us)we had jap food at marina,table booked by crystal.haha.no wonder we had a quiet corner.the food's not bad i have to say.had a curry katsu don.serving's quite big.haha.after tt we went ard window shopping before gng for desserts at menotti.

wake up ur idea

2007-06-09T08:24:00.000-07:00

this wk felt super long.partly cos of a dreaded event in the middle of the week.CO COC parade.so many rehearsals in the hot sun just for it.thankfully it went on well.except for some small hiccups,with the incoming reading his own rank wrongly.lol.was quite stressed during the parade cos i was in the front row with many RSMs sitting right in front of my contingent.the parade itself was all a show,with my coy ppl making up about 3 out of 4 contingent when a company is supposed to come up with one contingent of 18 men.wad a joke.
another reason was tt i really had enough of this coy.wad an eventful wk we had.2 morons were late for mid-day on mon which caused the whole coy to fall in outside the gym for some uncalled for physical activities plus scolding.the scolding actually included somethings tt we dun really deserve.had some miscommunications on tuesday which again caused some unhappiness.wed the senior specs surprisingly came down for 5bx n caught some guys coming down "late".we were in fact just on time.we fell in early.tt called for a scolding sessions n made us all march to ckhse tgt for breakfast.wad is this?he called himself the big bastard.since no one's taking charge,he will now.hello.wake up ur idea.normally u're not even down for 5bx when u're supposed to n u scold us for being "late" in ur context.wad is this?how do u expect discipline when u're not setting the right example?so wad if u have the rank.screw it.vincent is right.it's they themselves who caused the coy to be like this now.u didnt enforce uip when u're supposed to.u didnt want to care cos u were tired then.u didnt take actions then.now some guys got out of hand n now u tekan ALL of us.fair?sometimes i really dunno if the senior specs can be trusted.u lost the respect i had for u,totally.u only have urself to thank.as for my fellow mates,it's also time for them to wake up their idea.where's the basic discipline for soldiers?where's the pride?to think the outgng CO actually praised our coy for developing into an indispensable pillar of C4 support.
the week den ended with coy gng on exercise prep.next wk is exercise proper.deployed in camp near syscon.hope wun get into trouble.
6 mths to ORD!

updates again

2007-06-03T02:45:00.000-07:00

nth really worth mentioning actually other than range.all i can say is tt i'm rather satisfied with my own performance.missed only 4 targets out of a total of 30.but since it's css shoot so it's group effort that counts.haha.nvm tt we missed marksmanship i'm still proud of my detail.haha.at least we're better than the all-star details with all the atp marksmen.haha.
june is here!haha.1 mth closer to ord.haha.suddenly got involved in another exercise which starts next week.well.good news for me.cos it beats slacking ard in office with nth to do.time passes faster that way i guess.life in camp is seriously getting boring with my bed buddy hospitalised last sunday.hmm.he's discharged now.hope he recovers soon n join us back in camp.his absence was really felt,at least by me cos he's someone whom i feel comfortable sharing things n thoughts with.take care km!
wed is COC parade.a few more rehearsals n it'll be over.haha.
away from camp life.met up with jc classmates yesterday.had a simple dinner cum catching up session.it's always nice meeting up with them.heartwarming.once again,the urge to plunge back into campus life hit me again when they discussed abt uni life for the gals.haha.
another thing tt's on my mind is driving.shd i go learn driving now or wait till i ord?hmm...

some grumbles

2007-05-20T21:43:00.000-07:00

just some grumbles before booking in again.sometimes i think facing someone for too long can be bad too.u'll see all the bad points abt tt particular person.most of the time we get blinded by the person's bad points tt we forget his or her good points.
was quite frustrated by this particular someone last week.i noe X is a nice person but he's probably not tt nice to work with.i noe it's not ur fault,perhaps it's mine.wadever.just need to take time off and relax.n pls stop following so closely tt i cant breathe.i guess tt's sth bad abt life in camp.there's practically NO personal space.maybe we'll work tt out somehow.
as for the ex last week,hmm.quite ok lar.all i can say is tt i had quite a good time.given tt we have a rather nice place to sleep in plus no one giving us trouble.so much better than gng outfield.haha.no complaints.
one good thing abt this week.it's a 4 day work week for us but it's packed with COC rehearsals.back to the parade rehearsal days.

replying tags:
rard + brent:hey!havent heard from u guys for a long time.taiwan was quite nice i would have to say.haha.take care!
tear:haha.yes.pls go out.i'm sooooo bored too.
duffy:yea.juz have to bear with it,get it over n done with.haha.
yen:yups.juz hope tt this phase will be over REAL soon.cant wait to go back to campus life.
zixu:hey!great to heard from u!wah.dun have to rub salt on my wounds rite.i oso hope to get out soon.n i dun have 50000 more days to ord k.indeed,friends r the only thing tt's close to fun in the army.kk.take care!
miin:hello.hmm.aurora ar.see how lor.havent heard anything abt it yet.

2007-05-05T07:55:00.000-07:00

felt the urge to update my blog but once i'm here i'm at a loss of wad to type.just tired of the way things are going on.it's tiring to be running the show when u're not required to.but we just have to rise to the occasion.kind of disappointing at the way the company is functioning.those who are supposed to be working arent,forcing those who are just supposed to follow to work doubly hard.fair?this cant work man.it's not that we dun want to work but we just cant.without the thing on our shoulders,it's hard.sandwiched in the middle.
we'll be going on exercise again next week onwards.haha.busy year.but sometimes it's better that way.time passes much faster.cant wait to get this over and done with.
on the brighter note,weekends r great time to catch up with friends.spiderman 3 was good.there's just a thin line between good and bad.how things turn out are usually within our control.fate is in our own hands.

back!

2007-04-19T01:50:00.000-07:00

i'm back!haha.a picture speaks a thousand words.but of cos i wasnt there for holiday or wad although it seems like it.lol.

flying off on the 20th

a bridge at one of our rest points during day fam

crater of a mud volcano(see the bubbling of the mud!)

nice sky

sunset

dream mall

ferris wheel on top of dream mall

me and anderson

me and soo yuan

flight back

shall go fix my chatterbox asap.haha.

here we go again

2007-03-19T08:19:00.000-07:00

here we go again.off to taiwan for exercise.haha.hope everything goes well.see u guys in a month's time...

worth?

2007-03-15T10:19:00.000-07:00

havent been updating for 2 months.haha.sort of lost the motivation to update besides the lack of time n energy to do so.things going on now for me are no longer worth noting.meaningless as i've mentioned previously.i seem to be living blindly.but for now,let me vent out some anger.
kinda disappointed about how things r going recently.it's indeed hard for people to live together.conflicts n clashes of interests r inevitable.miscommunications or rather the lack of communication itself brought it upon us.cliques were formed.iron curtains were raised in bunk.we're no longer one.i guess we weren't even one to begin with.this cant be solved overnight i guess.but it has gone to the extent tt some are detesting the presence of the other party.perhaps they are not wrong to choose wad they're doing,or rather not doing.it's a different way of surviving life in green.sometimes i really cant stand the way some people handle things.come on man.we're all in this together.y leave it to others to fill ur shoes?no one owes u anything.other than the term we pen before our names,we're equal.no one has more rights than others.so come on,play ur part.wake up ur idea.it's kinda sad tt things have evolved this way.i certainly wish for this to change for the better but it takes 2 hands to clap.
as for things on the larger scale,all i can say is the coy is in an utter mess.the way we're functioning is totally chaotic n it's kinda pissing us off.once again comunication,or rather the lack of it,was the culprit.we have separate networks within the coy.u dun need an insider to tell the situation now.we can be receiving 2 kind of instructions for a single task.haha.perhaps another factor tt led to this was change.changes in leadership n management is the most prominent thing in this organisation.after wallaby last yr,our OC n PS left.new blood came in,so did a totally new kind of leadership.this OC is more transparent n his way of handling things certainly gave us a shock initially.but he's certainly a nice guy if u put work aside.as for the PS tt left,he calls himself the router.haha.when he was ard,things were more orderly cos he's the one joining the 2 networks together.he's always the one giving us advice on how to do things.i call him the 灵魂人物 of our coy.now the impact of his absence is totally felt on us.it doesnt feel like we're going overseas for exercise when we're leaving Singapore next tuesday.wad a joke rite.haix.sometimes i really wonder is change really that good.yes it's necessary to change to keep up to technology but i guess not all changes r good all the time.some can be fatal and if things dun change for the better,we'll suffer more upon return from taiwan.wad one of my friend said is true.this coy is no longer worth us giving in 100% effort.心灰意冷.
enough of me complaining.on the brighter side.this week ive been on off n leave.objective was for us to spend quality time with our folks at home before we leave for taiwan for 1 month or so.haha.hopefully this exercise can be a fun-filled one.kinda worried about the terrain n traffic there having heard so many unfortunate case studies.maybe this trip can change things for the better.it helps if everyone is going through shit together.haha.

new year

2007-01-07T03:44:00.000-08:00

jus some random tots from the past yr...2006 was a not-so-eventful year for me,partly becos of army.nth much happening.other than getting my military license which was probably the most useful thing u'll learn in the army,there was no major accomplishment for me.everyone's moving on into a new phase of life after graduation.but it seems tt i'm still stuck in my post-jc life.everything becomes routine with no meaning to it.days go by without any meaning and objective.sad.experienced an overseas exercise.met many different people,be it from camp or old friends.haha.maybe a bigger social circle is another benefit of the army.cant think of anything else.
i feel really tired.i'm tired of always putting on a false front everyday.it just sucks to have to put on a smile when i'm not really in the mood.n to make it worse i have to do it everyday.it sucks.why cant i just be myself.so much pressure coming from everywhere.i know it even when they dun say it.i dun like life like this.

xmas

2006-12-24T20:48:00.000-08:00

after clearing 1 week off-in-lieu for wallaby,went back to office to shift office but unfortunately the new office is not ready yet so the week was spent finding things to do.haha.life is getting monotonous with this kinda sucky weather.

had a gathering with my lower sec classmates.it was heartwarming meeting them.all these familiar faces.busy cataching up with each others' lives.unknowingly,we've known each other for at least 7 yrs already.it seems as if it was yesterday when we first saw each other.suddenly felt really old.haix.time really flies.

merry christmas and a happie new year to all!
once again it's the festive season.yeah.2006's gonna be over real soon,with 2007 welcoming us.i still remember...3 yrs ago i was looking forward to my new jc life...2 yrs ago i was preparing for orientation with councillors...1 yr ago i was enjoying my 1st book out...now i'm clearing my annnual leave.haha.time really flies....how i wish for the next christmas to come earlier cos of ORD.haha.

pre-wallaby

2006-11-16T07:35:00.000-08:00

long weekend before departure for Wallaby on sunday.it's a morning flight.sian.means hafta reach airport early.it'll be 3 weeks in Australia.away from civilisation.boo.life's gonna be boring.hope tt the exercise will be smooth n not tt xiong,ie dunnit camo-on n stuff.haha.heard stories of Wallaby.some quite dangerous.hope we'll all come back in one piece.haha.of cos lar.dunno wad to feel abt the exercise now.dunno wad to expect oso.hope it'll be fun.but how fun can out-field be?haha.this exercise is a real test of our ops knowledge.comms or no comms,it's only on us now.one detachment-3 guys to settle.no one to help.bleah.
had a company cohesion steamboat at marina bay yesterday.haha.quite ok lar.quite fun but i still feel tt company cohesion ought to be sth everyone can do tgt.haha.it was more like a farewell dinner for us before departure.
tt's all for now.off i go to wallaby!

down

2006-11-01T05:03:00.000-08:00

down.feeling really down.haix.

the one on double standards

2006-10-28T23:14:00.000-07:00

just some random thoughts.as long as humans r involved,there is definitely double standards involved.i mean.the world is seldom fair-treatment,rights,well-being,etc.haix.i guess sometimes we just have to accept these kind of things.afterall,we've been through worse things than not have any privileges.haha.just a bit unhappy that they got the same kind of treatment as us.but wad to do.we shall be contented about our situation now.
these few weeks have be busy getting stuff for wallaby.man.spending so much on necessary things to bring there.n the worse thing is we're not given allowance for overseas ex.bleah.kk.gtg pack my stuff i bought.till i blog again.

update again

2006-10-23T08:25:00.000-07:00

finally found the time to update this blog.haha.seriously getting lazy to even update this blog.haha.doubt anyone reads it anyway.
after all the cleaning n washing,all the stores for wallaby r finally done with the crates,containers n vehicles sealed n sent there.although the packing process is rather tedious,days were spent meaningfully,at least there's sth to occupy our day.now,we're basically rotting away in camp.bleah.i know slacking's better than being busy but days seem to drag longer.
it has been getting rather hazy recently too.boo.bad weather,bad for health.do sth abt it man.
haiz.less than a month before we'll fly off to australia for exercise.dunno whether to look forward to it or not.it'll definitely be an experience i guess.let's hope nth much happens to my detachment.

juz had a long break away from camp.booked out last wed nite and i'm only gng back tmr nite.haha.had to clear my leave.went to crash some lectures at ntu.haha.not my prospective uni but juz went for experience.haha.it;s quite fun to study when u're not required to do so.haha.met some familiar faces.many of which gave my friends n i the i-tot-u-ought-to-be-in-the-army look when i saw them in campus.haha.hmm.having some second tots on choice of uni course.but den again,wad else can i do with results tt r neither here nor there.bleah.so it's still chem engine for the time being.

updates

2006-08-19T07:13:00.000-07:00

once again it's time for my once-in-a-while update.2 weeks passed in a breeze cos i was driving almost every other day.familarising vehicle or daytona.haha.seriously when driving military vehicles,it's easier for convoy movement cos it's much easier for lane change,except for the last vehicle cos we're really slow moving vehicles.haha.n other road users do not care abt us at all.even when we're near some exit n we wanna filter right,they still do not slow down for us.bleah.they shd know tt it's not our choice to move so slowly at 50kmph lor.esp on expressways.it gets super tiring to drive at such pace.
this week,the new operators n a few specialists from Signal Institute got posted into my coy.so now we're the not-so-new-newbies.haha.wad a time for them to come in cos the operators most prob cant become cat c drivers so they cant drive at wallaby.effectively,we're the only drivers left.haha.hopefully now we can get better treatment from the higher management.but unfortunately it doesnt seem to be the case cos we juz got tekan-ed when we were slightly late but the new guys didnt not when they were even later than us.wad's with the double standard man.most importantly,we seriously hope tt our UIP will end earlier than them.if not it'll be damn unfair to us.as the company goes into preparation for ex wallaby,it means more sai kang for us man.oh.these new guys seem to be quite screwed up.esp the new specs.hopefully they dun play rank with us too cos in units,3SGs r as good as men.bleah.
went back to nj today for a peek at the past vs present games thingy.it seems tt response was quite lousy.met up with some fellow councillors.37th n some of the 39th.some of the 39th were part of the 37th cos they r IP students gng through a 4 yr course at njc.looking at them reminds me of my jc days.but they're definitely more muggish than us.had a chat with some of them.haiz.every council has theit own problems.after tt,we headed to town for lunch,pool n dinner.haha.it's the company tt matters.had a great time catching up with them.looking forward to the gathering next week.juz tt AHM has to spoil the gathering cos it so happens to be the next morning.boo.tt's all for now.

daytona

2006-08-05T08:57:00.000-07:00

basically life's back to normal.back to unit.priority now is to clock 1000km so tt i can become a cat C driver.its ultimate purpose is to get me to australia for ex wallaby.sounds exciting but there's a hell lot to learn and do prior to the trip.haha.tt's wad makes life in green pass faster i guess.sth to do is always better than none at all.haha.life has been pretty dull recently.the only fun came from ex daytona which involves us driving unimogs around the island to clock milege as well as last thursday's CO evening,sth tt brought the company and battalion some fun.haha.
the coming month will be even more busy for us,with hook-up for wallaby,learning company stuff,driving as well as preparing for the army half marathon.darn.running has always been sth tt i do not seek pleasure from.neither do i understand y some pple enjoy the physical activity so much.haha.
met up with my dear class last weekend.havent seen them for ages but everyone's pretty much the same.looking back,time really flies.the gals r starting uni already but most of them seem to be complaining abt it.haha.first we had dinner,den had a catching-up session at the esplanade before coffee at raffles city.it was great seeing everyone again.guess this would be the last meeting until some time later in the year.haha.everyone will be busy with their own stuff.but tt's definitely not the end of our friendship.
sth to be happy about-there's a public holiday this week!Happy Birthday Singapore!hmm.when did i become so patriotic.lol.

finally!

2006-07-19T07:47:00.000-07:00

oh man.after so many weeks,i finally passed my military driving test today.yeah man.can stay-out after passing n tt explains why i'm here typing an entry on a weekday nite.haha.thank goodness the traffic conditions today were quite ok.no surprises during the test.juz a few left turns,right turns n tt was it.woohoo.
haha.on cloud nine now.juz enjoying my nite at home.do nth oso better than staying in camp.haha.island-wide confidence driving tmr n tt shd be the end of course for me.have to say tt the course was interesting.though driving is rather tiring but the instructors(at least a few)are quite nice to us.nice pple.this course made me know my SI 04/05 platoon mates better.but juz when we're more comfortable with each other,there we are back to our respective units.haha.tt's life.
till i blog again.

yet another update.

2006-06-24T23:26:00.000-07:00

3 weeks into driving course.got my so-called class 3 license.moving off to class 4 coming monday.haha.it was an experience i would say.from circuit driving to parking den to public road driving in a landrover.haha.from always stalling the engine to less stalling.haha.went through 2 driving assessments n some theory tests-highway code n highway situational problems.as well as simulator driving which is quite crappy.juz when i'm more or less comfortable with the landrover,i'm moving off to drive a 3-tonne.this rather big monster on the road.sheesh.wish me luck.
anw.spent my birthday in camp this week.on a rather low profile thankfully.haha.into my last teenage year.haha.well.a big thank you to those who rmbed n sms-ed me.not forgetting those who tagged.my birthday wish-get out of sembawang camp with a military license asap.haha.
i realise as days go by,i have lesser things to blog about.it's juz another week in camp.life has been rather meaningless n boring.haix.give me a life.not an army one.

2 weeks of sai-kang

2006-06-03T00:10:00.000-07:00

2 weeks of sai-kang.tt was wad we had in 2 sig.was posted here after my course in SI.haha.into SATCOM company.wow.sth totally new.means more studying.boo.now tt we're new here,we're under sth called the company induction programme.which spells strict regimentation,no privileges(nights off,tv or any form of welfare)as well as marching to cookhouse.another boo.haix.hopefully this CIP will be short.other than tt,the pple there r quite nice.the senior operators,the specs as well as officers.of course we have not seen the worse side of them yet.n i seriously do not wish to experience tt personally any time soon.
yesterday,we dragged our duffel bags out of stagmont camp cos we're gng for our driving course.haha.not exactly a good thing cos the camp's so freaking far away from home n heard tt driving's crazy.instructors there do nth but scold u the whole day.life there is not going to be good.wad's worse-we're booking in n out in smart-4 plus field pack at sat 1pm n sun nite 2130 respectively.back to recruit lifestyle.freak.so there we go on monday.to our new camp.haha.driving means reunion with the rest of our platoon from SI.haha.a few whom we do not long to meet.other than tt they're fine with us.haha.hope i get my military license soon.haha.
till i blog again.

end of course

2006-05-20T09:12:00.000-07:00

here i am.juz came back from a mini class gathering.haha.met up with some jc classmates today.some of us went back to njc for funtasia-food n fun fair.haha.really crowded.haha.a once-in-a-while vibrant njc in others' eyes.but i beg to differ.to me,nj was a place tt really changed me a lot,into someone much more outgoing compared to the past.haha.a good change i would have to say.after tt went for dinner with them.a bad choice to have dinner in town on a weekend evening,especially if the group is relatively big.walked ard town hunting for seats.haha.
back to army life.we ended our infocomm 1 course unofficially last week,with an overnight summary exercise outfield(a rare chance to go outfield in SI,haha)i was fortunate enough to be an RID 2-ic,meaning i have to do the spiking again(thanx).but gd thing the spikes were shorter.after a chop-chop set up,we camped in the vehicle to manage comms ie slack cos there were no mobile users for the RID.lol.it was a damn warm day n the interior of the vehicle was a greenhouse.horrible.in the night phase,i was pulled out to be the node warrant.haiz.another slack appointment.juz to assist the node commander.lol.due to unforeseen circumstances,exercise was cut at around 1 am n we headed back to camp.went to bed only at 4 am.nice experience.haha.the rest of the week was practical tests for the various detachments n equipment.haha.
haiz.with end of course comes posting.it's damn bloody unfair for posting to be by index order instead of merit.we were told tt it was by merit.damn.out of the 4 vocations allocated to my platoon,i got the so-called worse wan.it's a 100% stay in wan.argh.the more slack vocations were given mostly to the more slack pple.damn.but of course there were pple who deserve to be there but most dun deserve tt vocation(in my humble opinion)screw it.suck thumb lor.haix.
-2 SIG,here i come...

2nd last week of course

2006-05-14T00:33:00.000-07:00

moving into last week of course.left with the highlights of the course.summary exercise n various tests.haha.these will more or less decide where we go after SI.haha.xiong week ahead.
last tues was indeed the most xiong day of my whole course-TCS detachment setting up drill.we originally had to set up the unimog with antenna mast jacked up a total of 4 times but thanx to the rain we only did it thrice.but once was already enough to tire us out.the hammering of iron spike was freaking tiring.i consider it the second most dangerous thing to do at the detachment cos the hammer head may juz fly out anytime,which explains the purpose of the helmet.haha.the most dangerous thing would be jacking up the antenna mast.hands on the mast was a strict no-no juz in case the upper section slides down anytime.ouch!was totally shagged after tt exercise.thank god we had almost the whole week to recover.but my arm still hurts.think it was a sprain.hope i recover in time for summex.
long weekend became a short weekend.damn.thanks to guard duty.suck thumb lor.24 hour duty.i did sentry.haha.hmm.okie lar.at least dunit to prowl until legs break but still tiring lar.only 4 hours of rest den 8 hrs straight duty.the came of dawn was the entering of stone-mode.dozed off twice at the counter.opps.bleah.the only good thing was tt the meals were not bad.haha.muslim food's always better.i have no idea why.haiz.towards dawn,an alarm at a certain top secret place went off for no reason.den had to wake all the impt ppl up to settle tt problem.haha.but we had no idea how to stop the alarm.haha.the problem of technology.
haiz.sian sian sian.a few more hours n i'll have to book in liao.tsk tsk.my weekend-burnt.=( nvm.tmr will be better(i hope)

class outing

2006-04-30T09:59:00.000-07:00

juz came back from town.had a class outing today.not the whole class turned up but nevertheless.a good number.haha.caught up with them regarding everything under the sun-how's life like now,uni course blah blah blah.feels like we're back in j2,or rather the time when we havent enlisted.was toking to the guys on army life(as expected).was trying not to show how slack signals is.but very hard leh.lol.up till now,no one has ever failed to not get jealous on how slack signals is.bleah.
juz like this,one long weekend down.tmr still hafta book in earlier to prepare for Ex VHF.bleah.life is getting really boring recently.seriously need to make life more meaningful.help!!!! in a few weeks time i'll be out of SI.den it'll be driving.haha.interesting.at least it's a skill applicable to life.maybe tt may help brightening life more.lol.2 years?haiz.a long way to go man.but then again.i shdnt be complaining too much.others long to get my vocation.
May already.haha.got quite a few nice movies this mth.really need to catch them.hmm.like da vinci code,MI3,blah blah blah.anyone interested?
-looking forward to the next book out even b4 i book in.

half way

2006-04-23T03:35:00.000-07:00

half way thru the course at SI.of cos there were times where it's fun.times where we juz had to suck thumb.haha.as usual.in a few hours time,i'll be back in camp.haix.looking forward to the next book out.haha.this cycle repeats itself i guess for the next few months until i ORD.boring.time passes especially slow in camp.the only time to look forward to is dinner cos i'll have a few hours of admin time to myself after tt almost every other day.lol.sometimes i really wonder why this course is a stay in course.given a choice i would want a more meaningful ns life.since i have to go through it anyway.heard some ppl may be posted overseas for ard 1 year.think it's quite cool.at least it's sth new.but then again.it's abt leaving ur family behind.haha.
last week was a really long week for me especially cos of camp guard which caused me one night of undisturbed sleep.was totally stone on thurs.luckily it was a slack day.friday was a horrible day thanks to the platoon opposite us.the cadets having exercise on the parade sq already made it hard for us to fall asleep on thurs nite.yet the platoon opp which returned from an overnight exercise at ard 2 am made so much noise to wake us up from our sleep.to add on.they still switched on the corridor lights.selfish bastards.worthless idiots.irritating freaks i call them.they still had the cheek to ask us to quieten down the next day when they r resting in bunk.nvm.shall make peace cos we're still neighbours.
hmm.not exactly very happy with my platoon either.really wonder how some of them made it to Si in the first place.who doesnt want to slack here.but when there's work to do.juz do lar.complain so much.some even find ways n means to siam.den leave the work to always the same few pple.u think it's fair?haix.nvm.
hmm.this week,many ppl will be booking out here n there for interviews n stuff regarding uni application.lol.received a letter from ntu,accepting me for chem engine course.but somehow i'm not particularly excited over it.i'm more keen on receiving tt notification from nus.chances r slim i guess.bleah.
met up with brent hua rard n shaun for dinner last night.was happily teasing recruit brent over his new look.lol.not forgeting rard's complaints.haha.meeting them reminds me of jc days.really wanna go back to tt time.only need to study.life was so simple yet happy.miss the company of my classmates.council mates.cca mates.school life is definitely much better than wad it is now.life still goes on.
till i blog again!

signals!

2006-04-08T20:19:00.000-07:00

3 weeks in signals institute.have to say i'm really lucky to be in infocomm 1.vehicle bound!dunnit to carry heavy signal set n chiong.haha.but one thing is there a lot of things to learn.very technical stuff which sort of bores me.everyday lessons so packed.in the cold air-con room.face the computer.hmm.maybe i shdnt be complaining too much cos life's so much better than those out in the field proning,leopard crawling blah blah blah.haha.life has been pretty good.juz tt need to find stuff to do after 7 or 8 pm everyday.lol.sergeant's nice.cc is so-so.funny at times,gl at times.haha.7 more weeks to go till the end of course.cant wait.but den again.how will life be after SI???
till i blog again.

POP lor!

2006-03-09T07:00:00.000-08:00

woohoo.spirits at all time high.finally after 13 weeks,BMT came to an end.had my passing out parade on 7th march.spent lots of time under the hot sun preparing for the parade n it was all worthwhile.especially when our parents put on the jockey cap for us and when we tossed our jockey caps in the air.oh man.tt kinda feeling is beyond description.i would have to say BMTC did gave me a meaningful n memorable BMT experience.met great pals there.we ate,slept,showered,powdered,crawled,ran,marched,had fun n suffered together.haha.although we barely knew each other for 3 mths,the experience we shared is enough to last us a lifetime.i'll always remember u guys.Pegasus Platoon 4 Section 4-Joo Sheng,Ivan,Lie Qi,Jia Long,Jeffery,Yu Zheng,Benjamin,Tian Hong,Ankur,Gary n my dear buddy Zhiwen!lol.
not forgeting our commanders.haha.the times they tekan us,the photos of themselves they took at field camp,the times they tok cock with us.it was definitely them who made the difference.the always-cool-and-calm PC 2LT Shahril,full-of-inspirational-quote PC 2SG Fadzry,company-most-sai-kang sergeant 3SG Nasry,company-cutest sergeant 3SG Ismail and company-slackest-PSP-mad 3SG Low.juz a few quotes from PS:"when the body cries enough,the spirit says never","a bit more pain,a bit more sweat n it'll all be over" and "juz put a thumb in ur mouth n one in ur ass n suck it in".
the last 2 weeks of BMT were rather hectic even though training stopped.Games Day,CO parade,Graduation Parade Rehearsals,all the Retests n of cos the grueling 24 km route march which deserves some special mention.School 2 had our march on 3rd march.we gathered at the parade sq at ard 2 plus in the afternn for warm up n briefing.Pegasus was the last company for the route march.the afternn sun was roasting all of us.the long four with Full Battle Order didnt help us forget the heat.haha.the first few km were fine.fatigue hasnt set in yet.other than the sand in the air,everything was fine.after the 8km mark at old SISPEC,we slowed down unknowingly.gaps between ppl got bigger,singing got softer.we stopped at the 12 km mark,known as the blue lagoon for dinner plus a can of 100 plus each.it was hell after dinner.visibility went to all time low.darkness plus the sand in air.somemore,the round around blue lagoon was a fast march for us la.hell seriously.it felt like it was way more than 4km.after which we headed back to SISPEC for another rest den it was back to BMTC.by the time we reached BMTC,it was pass midnight.the last lap along tekong highway,everyone was high man.we started singing loudly again.singing at the top of your voices as we march pass sch 1 bunks.too bad for those sleeping.lol.after tt was a mad rush to send arms n shower.lights out 0200.haha.
apart from military life.another significant event since the last update was the release of the A level results.cool.did pretty well(in my standards).happy la,given how much effort i put in.GP was a bonus for me.lol.i was overjoyed when i saw a B3.lol.anw.life still goes on.there are so many other measures for success.it's time to move on now.no time to look back anymore.now it's a rush to search for suitable university course.no choice la.no more procastination.future is more or less decided now.havent come to a decision yet but the idea is more or less there.hopefully i wun regret wadever decision i'm gonna make.i cant regret it.
kk.think i've typed enough.gonna enjoy my block leave.till i blog again!

pop soon!

2006-02-24T07:27:00.000-08:00

haha.finally back to update my blog.haha.lazy mah.as i mentioned.time on mainland is precious.so muz spend it wisely.haha.SIT test over.haha.quite fun i have to say.got to know eric n jian zheng more.haha.nice peeps.i was considered quite lucky to have my own PC to be the commander in charge of my detail.he's a nice guy.so we had some extent of welfare which included not crawling on mud n less arti drills.lol.live hand grenade throw was another experience,esp having kenna a blind in my detail.it's not me who kenna the blind la of cos.it had to be the person right b4 me.bleah.waited for abt 15-20 min b4 the detonators came to detonate the blind with a C4 under the hot afternoon sun.haha.experienced the power of the C4.cool.much more powerful than the usual grenade.can feel the power of the detonation.haha.
SOC was another interesting experience.havent done the full run down yet.but already know a few obstacles tt i have difficulties.low wall which is not really low for me but still can jump over when i'm lucky n monkey bar.bleah.had an almost full run down yesterday which included a 350m run b4 the 11 obstacles n a 300m run after.found it quite tiring.cleared almost all the obstacles except monkey.had some trouble with balancing beam(the gng up part) n the jacob's ladder.quite scary leh the high elements.esp after withnessing someone fall through the hole in the jacob's ladder.bleah.the OC made me do the jacob's ladder 3 times lor.but not bad lar.less scary after the 3 times.after clearing all,i ran back to the starting point n found out tt my buddy still trying the low wall.bleah.he much taller than me leh.opps.nvm.shall cheer him on the next time.monday full run down for SOC,a.k.a the SOC test.bleah.doubt i can complete it within 11 min but heck.juz go for it liao.hopefully my leg will be better then.
ARGH!!!!A level results will be released on wed.good thing is tt we can book out.but i'm seriously worried.never felt this helpless before.totally no confidence in it lor.haiz.HELP!!!!!i guess i need all the luck in this world.2 years of work.or rather at least 2 weeks of mugging.bleah.

book in blues

2006-02-01T08:35:00.000-08:00

sheesh.time on mainland always pass faster than time on tekong.the 5 day cny break is coming to an end.time to go back to tekong.rather unwillingly but haha.life goes on.this book in is gonna be a long one.9 day confinement including SIT test and many other stuff.haha.soc starting soon i guess.
these few days at home.hmm.spent quite some time with family.lol.guess one good thing abt ns is tt it makes u value ur loved ones more cos u dun get to see them as often.haha.had a class gathering at di's place today.it was good.nice to see them after so long.catching up with them was great.all the army guys were discussing ns stuff.haha.
it was good no doubt.but things were no longer the same.the atmosphere was different.dun ask me why cos i have no idea too.no longer the group tt toks abt anything under the sun.it was juz different.but nevertheless.at least ppl make it an effort to come tgt.hope this can last.a toast to our friendship!

field camp

2006-01-29T08:09:00.000-08:00

back from field camp!wow.7 days passed by quite smoothly.not a lot of tekan other than for some stupid mistakes some selfish idiots made.but nvm.forget abt the unhappy stuff.
on the 20th jan 2006,the 3 companies of the more lao jiao recruits of BMTC sch 2 embarked on a journey which marked the start of their field camp.7 days outfield.no contact with the outside world.7 days full of activities.7 days of hell.the nights b4 field camp weren't exactly relaxing either.busy packing our field packs,rations n camp equipment.the first day was a total rush for me.after drawing arms,me n my armskote assistants practically had no time to rest.we had to gather with all out stuff,ready to start our 8 km route march to our 1st campsite.bleah.tiring leh the route march with field pack fully packed with clothes,rations n camp equipment,not forgeting sbo with 2 full waterbottles.finally after ard 2 hrs,we reached our 1st campsite.rubber tree plantation.den was setting up of basha n digging of drainage.after lunch,we had lectures n practise of wad was taught.soon,night fell n we had some rest cos it was quite dark.so cant have any more lectures or lesson.i cant believe my luck man.i was actually picked randomly to do sentry lor.sian.had less sleep than the rest.argh.nvm.2 hrs only.straight after duty,i went straight to sleep.too shagged.
the next day,after having breakfast,we were told to put on camo.haha.den we had lectures n practise again.tt day,we were taught range card n some other IFC stuff like judging dist n target indication.on the 3rd day, we had our IFC test.haha.guess i did quite ok la.pass can liao.cos i wanna pass BMT!!no recourse pls.haha.on day 4,we marched off to our 2nd campsite.oil palm plantation.it was a day most of us were looking forward to since field camp started.field routine!we had fresh rations for lunch n dinner,a short 5 min field shower as well as our re-supplies.woohoo.this oso meant tt half of fieldcamp is over.yeah.great morale booster.once again,we pitched our basha n rested our day away.lunch was great cos western was served.the next day we had the chance to shoot blanks during fire movement.quite fun other than the proning around oil palm trees.shortly after the practise at section level,we had the fire movement test.haha.den in the evening we had to march off to our 3rd n last campsite-reclaimed land.no one had any idea why the sudden change of plans.tt night we slept only on groundsheets.no shelter overhead.den in the middle of the night,it started pouring.thx a lot.freezing cold in the rain.we were evacuated into training shed.it was a cold n squeezy night.oso on tt night,i lost my helmet.damn sad.had to make do with someone else's helmet.bleah.the next day was trench-digging day.first was shell scrape which is like a shallow hole for us to prone in to fire.we're oso gng to sleep in tt fateful hole tt night.juz like a cemetry.suay la.i got a spot tt was super hard to dig with all the plants n hard soil.half way digging i got a huge piece of granite.darn.after tt,each section had to dig one fire trench each.the soil was much better.but this time it had to be deep cos when u stand inside,u can only be at most a fig 15.lol.my section did a not bad job i had to say.lol.tt day was a day of fresh rations too.lunch again was great.western again.haha.soon after dinner,we went back to our individual shell scrape to sleep.last night man.everyone's super excited.den in the middle of the night,poor me got bitten by sth which caused me to wake up.it bit me on my head lar.darn thing.quite painful.the medic suspected it was a centipede bite.luckily it wasnt serious.the next day,we had another fire movement b4 moving off to old SISPEC for BIC which marks the end of field camp.BIC was tough man.all the crawling in the hot sun was tiring man.but after completing it.there was a sense of achievement.I SURVIVED FIELD CAMP!!haha.
after tt was back to company line for store maintenance n cleaning of rifle.blanks make the rifle super dirty man.den yesterday morning,we booked out for cny.yea.long awaited cny break man.time to relax a bit but cant eat too much cos after tt will be SIT test.bleah.booking in on thurs but meanwhile shall juz go n enjoy.looking forward to class gathering.
anw.Happy Chinese New Year to all!may the year of dog bring good luck to everyone.esp those waiting for results.kk.till i blog again.

army

2006-01-14T06:07:00.000-08:00

a short break b4 another confinement in camp.field camp's starting next week.think it's gonna be xiong lor.eat up one weekend.another straight 2 week in camp.haha.juz hoping for the best.take wadever comes lor.den there'll be a well-deserved break i think.for cny.haha.looking forward to tt man.lol.
these few weeks in army still not bad la.start of BMT phase.more xiong definitely.less free time.more tests coming along.IMT was quite fun.but tiring lar though it's in air-con room.next week's range is gonna be exciting man.shooting in the hot sun in long fours.haha.
tt's abt all for now.till i book out again.

2 weeks in tekong

2005-12-24T21:13:00.000-08:00

hey.i'm back!haha.finally.the long-awaited book out!haha.freaking bored at tekong la.haha.2 week confinement.haha.training has been ok.haha.tiring of cos.not tt slack la of cos.haha.
at tekong.time seem to pass extremely slow.especially when we have nth to do.haha.we're sort of isolated from the outside world.everything is military over there.but quite fun la.cos all of us there r in the same boat.working towards a common goal.book out!!!lol.hmm.so far had a few route marches,footdrills,not forgetting physical training.haha.life has been ok lor.
anw.merry christmas to all!shall go enjoy my christmas now b4 booking in on monday again.haiz.haha.

2005-12-08T05:15:00.000-08:00

class @ masquerades

class guys

prom's finally over.haha.indeed.it was a night to remember.everyone in different outfits.some really interesting ones.ones tt u'll never forget.lol.haha.cant recognise some pple.haha.nj uniform really does wonders.haha.they look totally different la.haha.went ard taking pictures tt night.paid 62 bucks for photo-taking.lol.the food was okie only.haha.after prom itself was the highlight man.other than photo-taking was more photo-taking.with classmates,cca mates,councillors n other friends.cool.after tt,our class went back to room to slack for a few moments b4 deciding to go hunt for food.haha.den we bought some drinks back to the room to chill.haha.some pple get drunk really fast hor.lol.had a whole night of fun man.den started to fall asleep at 6 plus.

den our very happening class organised a bbq @ shiqin's hse.thanx shiqin.it turned out to be a send-off session for us guys cos we gng ns real soon.man.was already expecting sth when they were discussing stuffs but cant guess wad indeed was gonna happen.den half-way thru the bbq they called us in for some "fresh air"(good excuse huh?)haha.den they play the ppt they made.man.was quite touched.cos i know the ppt is NOT easy to make.haha.den came an oreo cheesecake!bade by them.cool man.didnt expect them to do all these.really a great bunch of pple man.our 2 years n counting friendship is really worth it man.(come on man.time for u all to be envious of my class.haha.)we were den presented with the cds of the ppt they made.nicely designed by di.haha.den was a whole night of chatting n stuff.really heartwarming man.i wun want to lose touch with this bunch of ppl.seriously.KIT k.

haha.last night of civilian life.tmr will be the start of my 2 yr military life.haha.expecting the unexpected.wishing myself luck.haha.take care guys out there.man.04S12 is a wonderful class tt i'm definitely gonna miss.04S12 rocks man!

- to our 13 girlfriends from s12.we love you too (:

finally free

2005-11-26T05:47:00.000-08:00

wahaha.finally freedom without guilt.haha.2 years of work.haha.but nobody's gng out leh.poor me stucked at home.haha.suddenly felt quite lost.no goals at all.haix.waiting for prom now.other than tt nth much to look forward to liao.
toking abt prom.dun have any idea wad to wear for it leh.haha.a few days left only.bleah.shopping's not my forte.haha.

liberation

2005-11-18T08:30:00.000-08:00

after so many papers.i came to a conclusion.cambridge is out to kill us.they definitely got me.seriously screwed.keeping my fingers n toes crossed.nvm.shall leave the worrying till next year.
meanwhile.it's time to rejoice tt the papers r over!!yeah man.wasnt really in the exam mood for today's paper actually.haha.went all the way to sch for a one hour mcq paper.haha.anw.wed already went out with class for a mini celebration with the non-chem-ers.haha.den today went out again.this time ate more stuff.n spent more money.haha.long-waited liberation.haha.2 years of work may not yield results but nevertheless effort is put in.so we do deserve to treat ourselves well for this period of time.haha.toking abt today's outing.quite pissed at 1st.cos of tt stupid cd shop.that cd shop hor.super irritating.got a few of their stuff keep following us as we were browsing the cds.staring at us lor.tt idiot manager or dunno wad lor.say we loitering ard den chase us out of his shop.wad the hell.juz becos we're students doesnt mean we cant be their customers.dunno wad kind of service is this lor.tt bastard say we disturb his customers.so sorry for him he juz lost 10 odd potential customers.wadever.guess he muz be too bored facing all the cds all day.
besides tt idiotic shop.everything was fine.never had so much fun laughing at a few interesting couples from our class.haha.why this kinda things only come out when we're abt to part?haha.shall not attempt to mention the few protagonists in the scandals.haha.dun wanna risk getting smacked in the stomach.haha.woohoo.more outings to come!harry potter on monday!haha.anymore?yes i hope.shall start studying for the 2 sure die papers on tues.haha.doubt it'll be useful but still muz read lor.cannot waste money.haha.
quite pissed when u did it but who am i to be pissed?haha.

3 papers down ONLY

2005-11-09T22:33:00.000-08:00

haha.wad am i doing here when i'm supposed to be reading for GP tmr?haha.bleah.3 papers down i'm totally convinced tt getting 4 As is by no means an easy task.still laughing at my naive mindset when i entered jc.so long as u get into a good jc n do so-so consistent work throughout the 2 years,getting As at A levels is sth u should expect.after 3 papers,all i have to say is tt it's not at all easy to get 4 As at A levels.it's NOT wad we expect it to be.too many surprises these few days.cant take it anymore.haix.but life still goes on.GP tmr n we're left with 1 week of xams.still more used to sch papers.fewer surprises.bleah.
counting down to the end of A levels.

3 days.

2005-11-04T07:12:00.000-08:00

haha.now's not exactly a nice time to update my blog but since i've received complain from dunno who,shall update it,a short wan ba.haha.
haiz.studying has been fine.probably a little slow.bleah.with only 3 days to the big As.all the best to everyone n of course myself.haha.may all the As come our way!yea man.jia youz!
lucks everyone!

2005-10-22T23:29:00.000-07:00

2 years in nj

2005-10-22T22:30:00.000-07:00

haha.late entry but nevertheless must still mention.Farewell assembly was last monday.haha.nj tradition.kinda symbolise our graduation from nj.really shocked us.2 years juz went by like this.wow.really had fun this one plus year.made some really great friends-from class,council n CO.amazing.jc can really change one's life.haha.can still recall the days when i first step into nj.a total new environment.everything is so foreign to me.luckily i got into a great class.a fun-loving n cheery class.really helped the transition.den came the horrible release of the Os results.some left n some joined us.took some time to break the ice n thankfully we bonded well.
then came council elections.got in luckily n met another bunch of nice pple.(sorry for the limited vocab)had fun doing n planning for projects-invest,NDC,teachers' day,OPEN DAY!,halloween,seniors' farewell,orientation n elects' camp.wow.cant believe we went through so much together,not forgetting last year's interhouse cheerleading.besides council,have to mention CO too.haha.both aurora concerts,genting trip n SYF.lots of bittersweet memories.
N obviously i cant neglect class!those outings-trips to di's house,sentosa,after-exam or celebration outings,study trips to libraries as well as those feasts we had together really bonded us well.thanx S12 for always supporting one another.rmb the times where we often plead our classmates to help out for council stuff,cca thingys as well as studies.really a helpful n nice bunch of pple i'll never regret meeting.it's a pity tt we have to leave sch just when we really started to know each other.but the end of a chapter is merely the start of another in life.we just have to move on.
below are some snaps from farewell assembly.mostly class photos only.haha.

some of our class gals
some of our class guys
RV gang in 04S12
class with mrs chiew n mr ong
our responsible class reps
four sub-ers!
3 sub-ers
04S12 councillors
chem S fantastic 4.still wishing to get 4 distinctions during the As.we can do it yea.

34th day

2005-10-01T01:46:00.000-07:00

1st week into restructured time table.haha.so boring lor.free periods r a total waste of time.cant do anything much.n worse of all 3 days is wed.full of breaks.sheesh.basically wasted thurs n fri away.spent thurs on tv.haha.finished the set of vcds i'm watching.so nice la.hk tv serials r the best.so much better than local wans.haha.went to doctor on fri to check my eye again.haha.getting better le.hope can go out soon.as in.get out of house.haha.like go out n mug tonnes better than mugging at home.can never mug at home de.juz too much distractions.was doing aj maths prelim a while ago n here i am blogging.haha.a short wan only.lol.hmm.tt's abt all.got back some papers.ok lor.acceptable lar.but definitely lots need to be done for the big As.which is in 34 days' time.gosh.

tags!
brentz:yea man.MUG.all of us stand equal chance of getting 4As.come on man.we can do it!
leech:hey!i wun forget the bet wan since i'm on the winning side,ever prepared to get treated.haha.
eunice:yea.brighter template.haha.still trying to survive all the smelly "faeces".so horrible!haha.
rard:haha.dunno who lar.i'm juz expecting to be treated.haha.
silin:eh.who is ur true friend?dun any how claim k.still dare to say.everytime ka jiao me.hmmph.
cyrena:haha.yea.loong time never see le.take care k!
yl:hey!thanx for ur blessing.really need all the luck.haha.tc~!
yen:aiya.some things dunnit to describe until lidat wan mah.describe too much no one wan to watch liao.muz have some suspense.haha.
di:eh.ur pics really blur mah.not once but so many times oso fail us.haix.give me lar.u buy new wan.haha.
tear:hey.wah.funny lor.tt paper is really cannot do wan.bear oso cannot do k.haha.cheerio hor.dun think too much le.

hmm.tt's all ba.shall blog soon.34 days left.forcing myself to mug.haha.no.we're becoming professional exam takers.haha.so easy lor.crap.

finally over.

2005-09-26T07:35:00.000-07:00

finally finally finally prelims officially over for me.haha.after sooooooooo long.today's paper was not meant for JC students.seriously.totally own-ed by it lor.felt like a kindergarten student attempting a uni paper.see equations juz sub.haha.gone case.not like a level phy is any better.guess i need to spend more time on it le.hopeless.tmr.sad to say have to go back for lessons.restructured time table.dun really like it but no choice.haha.die le.almost everything is coming back tmr.lucks everyone.so screwed.
hope 39 days r enough.n in case u dunno.39 days to the grand opening of A levels!!!not cool worx.bleah.

post prelim trauma

2005-09-24T08:24:00.000-07:00

gosh.prelims finally over.erm.not really over but ya.most papers over liao.so heck.haha.anw i'm not gonna score for phy so dun bother studying for phy s le.haha.after so much preparation,it turned out tt the preparations were futile.papers were once again un-doable.not tt we can undo wad we did but it's tt papers were not meant for humans.BUT nevertheless some pple will still get all the As n Bs.haha.painful truth.i dare say chem was the better paper.maths was horrible.physics was no better for me but many said it was ok.gosh.gone case liao.can forfeit the money i paid to sit for phy s liao.haha.haix.but anw it's JUST the prelims.haha.JUST one step closer to the big A levels.wow.tt helps a lot to comfort us tt we'll all do well for A levels. wonder if demoralising students really help.haix.this time dui bu qi mr ong again.not tt i didnt study but spent half the holidays on phy.i juz cant do the qn.dunno y.screwed up mcq liao.B for phy is impossible liao.haix.now teachers very smart.post mcq answers on kn let us check so tt we dun get a heart attack when we get the papers back all at once.but they dunno it spoils our day after checking them.
but at least now can party a bit.n i mean a bit.haha.already started gng out when papers not over yet.haha.went out after phy paper 3.with class to wheelock place eat BIG O.thanx to crystal we got quite some good deals.haha.pics available from di's blog.not veh clear though.opps.haha.den fri after chem s went to eat again with brent,hua,rard,jason n nette.haha.den today went out for movie n ate again with some classmates.oh man.i'm going broke.save me!!!haha.movie was not bad.haha.

the horror truth

2005-09-14T07:45:00.000-07:00

after days n weeks of mugging,the horror truth is here.3 days into prelims n i can only conclude tt it's either i suck or tt the paper suck.i believe tt it's the former cos the even more horrifying news is tt ppl actually find the paper do-able.gosh.maybe chem was ok juz tt once again my memory failed me.seriously wondering if there's a worm in my brain,gobbling up the stuff tt i juz tried to remember.if tt's the case i gotta eat up the worm 1st.oh tt's erm.hmm.anw.maths was horrible,so was econs when i didnt really study.but was worse hit by phy.totally own-ed by it lor.n it's not like i didnt put in work.in fact i spend half the holidays on phy but still.argh.sitting through the paper was really bad.knowing u studied but u juz cannot do the paper.sucks.
dunno wad teachers r thinking abt.the harder u fall the higher u bounce?but wad if collision was not elastic n u juz stick there with the impact of the fall?wad the hell.
but as heng says on his msn nic.there's not alt+F4 in prelims.juz have to go on.earth doesnt stop spinning cos of someone not progressing.
reaching for my sock

zerofourstwelve!

2005-09-06T07:46:00.000-07:00

haha.got this from someone/class blog.haha.juz testing system out.lol.anw.this's my zerofourstwelve.woohoo.haha.

sept

2005-09-06T07:38:00.000-07:00

hey.time for monthly update.GP prelims over.haha.didnt feel quite good.haha.i'm never good for GP.haha.here comes september.one step closer to end of my jc life.man.actually official lessons sort of over liao.after prelims will be restructured timetable where we go to sch 3 out of 5 days.haha.kinda scary now tt we're all out in the battlefield on ourselves.of course when we need help,teachers r always around but kinda impractical to keep gng to teachers.the sch isnt such a friendly place to study during the holidays.haha.
man.prelim is juz next week.so much yet to do.gosh.guess i need to camp overnight at some library.haha.haix.wish everyone good luck.dunno wad to say lar.time to hit the books again.oh ya.wish me luck too.haha.till i blog again.

desperately need 48 hrs a day.

i'm muggin' it

2005-08-08T06:17:00.000-07:00

oh...abt 1 month since the last update.haha.i wanna complain!!!it's less than a month to prelims n syllabus is not completed yet.argh.and teachers r happily giving us loads of hw.every other day is spent rushing hw for the next.how on earth do u expect us to revise?so wad if we feel the sense of urgency to study now?the load of hw juz turns us off.do we really have to forgo hw for revision when both r equally impt?wadever.
haha.aurora is finally over.haha.no more CCA commitments other than colours award this fri.haha.this national day holiday is really one tt is much awaited for.haha.really need a break from all the chionging tutorials.haha.spent the last 2 days reading harry potter.haha.laggy lar i know.bleah.i know it's time to study but i juz cant bring myself to study,when everything tt goes in now is going to disintegrate in the brain with half-lives of less than one week while resulting in a loss of mass.haha.i'm going crazy le.tgt with many ppl my age i suppose.
i'm muggin' it

aftermath

2005-07-09T20:53:00.000-07:00

as expected.results of the common test r coming back.haiz.didnt do well this time.expected lar when i did the paper but truth still hurts.haha.it's disappointing lar but there's nth i can do now to change the hard fact.juz take it as a lesson learnt lor.wad to do?muz work doubly hard now.abt 8 weeks to prelims.damn scary.juz wish to quickly step down from co.haha.syf presentation was ok although we screwed up quite a bit here n there.but nvm lar.we had fun.haha.concert coming up.
fell hard this time,but i'm making my way up now.hopefully it'll work.

cts over.so?

2005-07-01T00:06:00.000-07:00

after trying to mug for so long.common tests r finally over.can rest for a while ba but not for too long cos we're juz a step closer to prelims n A lvls.scary huh.but wad to do?
i guess i'll do pretty badly this time.especially in sciences cos i cant seem to remember stuff tt i need.so wad if i juz turned 18 a few weeks ago?life still goes on n a bad thing is,my memory is failing me.there seem to be a huge hole in my brain where all the information leaks out.this is bad.muz try to seal the hole asap huh.anyway still wanna thank all my friends who wished me on my bday.thanx lots.=)
haiz.so wad if cts r over?not as if we can do anything we want.we're still students.we still have to sit for As.guess we shd juz enjoy ourselves for a few more days but not for too long cos the engine,once cooled down will take quite some time to warm up again.got high specific heat capacity mah.gosh.tt's wad mugging did to me.
haha.major events coming up:syf presentation on 7/7/05 n CO concert on 29/7/05.haha.not exactly looking forward to it.but it's still better than boring lessons rite.haha.
wished i had more brains.

no time

2005-06-19T10:01:00.000-07:00

one week left.so little time.so much to mug.i'm hoping for a miracle.

Incomplete - Backstreet Boys

2005-06-16T09:11:00.000-07:00

Empty spaces fill me up with holes

Distant faces with no place left to go

Without you within me I can't find no rest

Where I'm going is anybody's guess

I've tried to go on like I never knew you

I'm awake but my world is half asleep

I pray for this heart to be unbroken

But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on

But I am swimming in an ocean all alone

Baby, my baby

It's written on your face

You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I've tried to go on like I never knew you

I'm awake but my world is half asleep

I pray for this heart to be unbroken

But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete

I don't mean to drag it on, but I can't seem to let you go

I don't wanna make you face this world alone

I wanna let you go (alone)

I've tried to go on like I never knew you

I'm awake but my world is half asleep

I pray for this heart to be unbroken

But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete

Incomplete

to the 37th

2005-06-11T08:25:00.000-07:00

hey.i know this's a bit late but it's always better late than never.haha.here's the entry i promised dedicated to the 37th.
guys.lots to say but dunno where n how to start.we gathered as 74 during elects camp 2004.it was a tough one for us den cos more than half the 74 are total strangers to us but our seniors drill the fact tt we'll have to support each other throughout the term.from then on,we started out journey to become one council.we bonded.we played.we cheered.but most imptly,we learned n grew up as one council.on the 7th july 2004,we were proudly invested into office.74 of us standing tall in front of the college,excited with the new tasks in our hands.from then,we embarked on a series of projects where we tried to change the college for the better.we worked our way to building a more lively college.
national day.we tried to make fireworks.haha.everything was great.the only regret was the ring of fire.but we definitely learnt from the painful lesson.den it was teachers' day.woohoo.council production rocked man.haha.came open day where we sprayed our hair red to give nj a more funky image.ushers were good,performances went smoothly.just some log probs but nth big lar.seniors farewell was a blast.wad a way to end the year 2004.again we rocked the ballroom with council production.haha.looks like we're born actors n actresses with superb script-writers.haha.
then came 2005.we kicked start the year with orientation one La Famiglia.trying to revive the nj spirit.all the walk-in rehearsals n preparation paid off well.it was well received by the year ones.well done 37th.soon came elections n campaigning.where we prepare for our step down.the new list of 74 came out n finally came elects camp once again but we're seniors now.all the stuff we learnt from seniors n during our term,we tried to impart to the juniors.all the activities once again.the ring of 74,the hike,games n reflections.but this time with the juniors.looking at them really reminds me of us one year ago.haha.
the 25th of may was the start of a new chapter in our lives.one where we officially pass our duties to the newly elected 38th n become full time students.i know it's hard to let go.but we have to accept the fact sooner or later.we've completed our fairy tale.now it's time for the 38th to take centrestage.we've played,we've worked,we've failed n succeeded.now it's time we MUG!!
a few words to u guys.a really big thank you.i really enjoyed working,mugging,playing n of course juz slacking with u guys.thanx for always being there for me.thanx for everything u gave me.all the memories.i'll bring with me.i promise.thanx for teaching me so much.thanx for tolerating with all my crap.thanx for being my friends.i'll miss u guys.i'll miss council room.all the late nites n mugging sessions.so beautiful.thanx guys for being part of my life.

we came as many,

unsure of ourselves

gathering together,

so different n yet

within us all was a similar flame

the passion that burns, in each of us

willing to serve, with HONOUR n PRIDE

the will to fight shall pull us through

helping us soar to greater heights!

cant promise the stars of the sky

but as one, we will do our best

running the race with our heads held high

we'll finish it, we'll make it through

the passion that burns, in each of us

willing to serve, with HONOUR n PRIDE

the will to fight shall pull us through

helping us soar to greater heights!

though we may face times of conflict,

where not all see eye to eye

we'll keep open minds, learn to give n take

encouraging each one on....

the passion that burns, in each of us

willing to serve, with HONOUR n PRIDE

the will to fight shall pull us through

helping us soar to greater heights!

memories.

2005-06-11T07:33:00.000-07:00

went back to rv a few days ago,or rather i didnt go back cos rv shifted to another campus cos the old wan is on reconstruction.haha.went back to visit juniors for their camp.haiz.sad to say tt this batch of sec 4 juniors is the last batch tt i'll know.feel so old.so out of place.anw.tt current campus is like an abandoned campsite lar.poor juniors using it.really bad lar.so small hall.as i walked into the sch compound,i had mixed emotions.everything looks so familar but yet not at all close to my heart.the banners ard the compound all bear the same sch name but the environment is different.haiz.today,i went by the old sch compound.it's almost totally demolished.haiz.looking at the building where my friends n i spent 4 years in,all the fond memories came back to me.those were the days.where we were still running along the corridor,rushing to the canteen,slamming classroom doors,campfire,sharing ghost stories n stuff.haha.time has changed so many things in us.behaviour,character n even physical appearance.haha.haiz.those were the days where one need not worry abt sth called A levels.haix.
two full weeks into the holidays n i'm juz starting revision.lots to catch up for me.no good sia.haha.was practically slacking my 1st week away.2nd week was taken away by CO.had a so-called music camp in sch.3d2n n all we did was practise practise n practise.it was almost hell man practising in such lousy environment.dazu in the hall.ok lar.used to it le.sectionals at raintree with no ventilation at all.guess i took practice venues in rv for granted.at least we had an air-conditioned ava1 for dazu n a decent classroom for sectionals.anw.the camp was ok lor.didnt really like the activities a lot lar.other stuff ok lor.of course free time was spent wisely on some games tt had to do with some cards.lol.made some new friends this camp.so still ok lor.at least i know more pple in co.not so lost in co anymore lor.lol.more co practs until syf presentation n concert.
academically,guess i have to get serious soon.maybe start gathering fuel to start my engine.haha.may the force be with us all.i wish i was a born mugger.

Simple Plan-untitled

I open my eyes

I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light

I can't remember how

I can't remember why I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain

And I can't make it go away

No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes

I've got no where to run

The night goes on

As I'm fading away

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming

I try to make a sound but no one hears me

I'm slipping off the edge

I'm hanging by a thread

I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered

And I can't explain what happened

And I can't erase the things that I've done

No I can't

How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes

I've got no where to run

The night goes on

As I'm fading away

Im sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes

I've got no where to run

The night goes on

As I'm fading away

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

2005-05-30T08:34:00.000-07:00

woo.wad a way to start a term break.haha.maybe not so much of a break.haha.the last week of term 2 was really hectic,although it was a real short week.monday was vesak day holiday,so some classmates n i headed to sentosa for some sun.perhaps it got too much n got us all sunburnt.haha.quite bad for some pple.i shall not say who.
wed was invest.which i shall elaborate on another entry dedicated to the 37th.
thurs n fri were full of tests.haha.it was indeed a busy week.lol.doesnt feel like term break's gonna begin.haha.today is already the 1st day of term break.lol.feeling so restless.got stuff to do but dun feel like starting.haha.has been watching VCDs this weekend.haha.hk serials rock.damn nice.haha.irrelavent.haha.guess i shall start work soon.if not really die wan.haha.anw.it's june again!haha.yeah.i luv june!but not the mugging of course.lolx.
tags!
nette:sorry nette.shall come online more often.haha.enjoy ur holidays yea.
leech:thanx for mugging with me.will miss u too.great CPU angel!
brent:thanx for being such a wonderful classmate n council mate too.great job.hope to see u more in class.haha.
pradz,yen n di:yes?dun anyhow change my name k.haha.enjoy ur holidays!

college day + JTS

2005-05-14T08:56:00.000-07:00

college day juz over.haha.was part of guard of honour.so had to sit through the whole ceremony n concert.saw the prize presentations n stuff.haha.saw many familar faces.haha.so pro pple.all the smart ones.wonder if i can make it back next year.haha.dun have high hopes lar.juz a small fry here.mission impossible man.haha.only spent a short time at the food fair.haha.saw almost everything.year ones panicking cos not enough food.haha.some of them going around extorting pple they know.haha.all sound so familar.fond memories of last year's food fair came back.so fun.haha.sometimes i really wish time can go back to the past.juz last year will do.haix.
anw.the 38th has been split into comms already.n i'm sort of transfered to feedback cos my portfolio is put into feedback n i'm gonna hand over to 2 juniors.haha.felt weird tt day sitting in with feedback when we met the juniors.haha.
yesterday we had group two(aliens) JTS.had great fun at pizza hut.all the lame jokes,hiding nat's camera n hp,making fun of poor melvin n his pathatic single scoope ice-cream which looks like a mouse but i cant rmb the name(hope he took it lightly),being racist with anup n chitra,den laughing our heads off at sharon's laughter,squeezing 10 odd pple into the neo-print machine,tricking ppl along orchard road by staring at the sky n running straight while turning back.haha.super funny n diu lian lar.haha.u guys totally rock man.had great fun.haha.some of them are really funny.like melvin,who bought a funky pen with the other side pointing middle finger,tran who obviously cant stop talking for more than 30 seconds,chitra who didnt mind the jokes we made abt her and many others.after the meal,the juniors presented to us a milk bottle each with lots of notes inside.so cool.haha.n some of them thinks tt i'm a fierce guy cos i sort of scolded them at the camp.haha.invest is coming soon,which means tt they r gonna take over us real soon.a part of me wish to hand over our responsibilities asap,but the other part of me is refusing to step down cos it would mark the end of our term n tt means we'll hafta become full time students.dunno how it'll feel cos we're juz too used to gng to council rm b4 n after sch.haiz.seriously.i hope u guys can keep the council spirit burning.cos it's the passion tt keeps u going.kk.gotta mug liao.haha.do u believe tt?neither do i.lolx.

the passion that burns

syf+electcamp

2005-05-09T07:23:00.000-07:00

hey.woohoo.quite some time since my last update.lol.haha.many events worthy of a mention here.haha.like erm.njco got gold for syf.haha.not fantastic but not bad lar for a co with 50% inexperienced members.lol.somemore we got into the syf music n dance presentation on 7th july together with the only gold wth honours co-hwa chong co.haha.it'll be an eye-opener i guess.haha.
before syf was the busy mayday weekend with elects camp 2005.it totally rocked.looking at them at elects camp really brings back many fun memories.it's hard to believe tt we've actually been through so much as the 37th student council.the elects may think tt this camp was too much.but it seriously was less xiong compared to last year's.esp the number of push-ups they did.way too little.haha.but of course we're not unreasonable beings.after all we're juz their seniors.and hopefully friends after hand over.haha.time flies.one year ago,we were juz 74 individuals,unable to understand why our seniors kept emphasising on us being 1 council but not 74 individuals.after a term,we indeed became one n truely understand the need to become one council.i guess we were as foolish n stupid(no offense) as them when we started.but events after events.we grew.maybe not physically for all but definitely mentally.lol.n we have to step down at our peak.quite sad.i'm missing council already.haiz.juz a mere 2 plus weeks to go.after tt.no more room to go to after sch.it's juz so hard to imagine.life's like tt.only after being through something tt u'll realise how much tt may matter to u.n only start to treasure things only when u're abt to lose it.but life still have to go on.we still have to take the As.no matter we like it or not.life's cruel.i dun like it.but do i have a choice?
today we had a half-day.or rather two-third day off for all the syf groups.haha.didnt really matter to me cos i went out with some councillors for sakae buffet.haha.n thanx to my captain my table ate a week's supply of eggs for my home.argh...cant believe it.i'm staying away from eggs for 1 week.haha.
some stuff kept occuring to me these few weeks.i cant seem to take her off my thoughts.but i'm unsure with myself.argh.this sucks.

updates.

2005-04-10T07:14:00.000-07:00

hey guys.haha.sorry lar.has been ages since my last update.haha.forgot wad happened le.opps.hmm.let me recall.oh.went parliament hse for NE visit.haha.quite dumb thing happened to di.haha.had great fun teasing di n yen sometimes.haha.shall not elaborate in case i kenna from them.haha.
syf's round the corner.which is both good n bad.bad cos of the stress n additional practices.good cos after syf,life's gonna be much better.counting down to my days left in co.really dread practices nowadays cos always have to stay back for them while others can go home n sleep or mug or even stone cos stoning is much better than co.haha.stressed sia.how to get gold with honours?so hard lor.we're the 1st orchestra.unlucky n somemore hwa chong has to be right behind us.thanx ar.haiz.
council's getting bz recently.haha.last project le lor.sad sia.but it has to come.haha.elections n elects camp.cool.bad thing is this yr campaigning period is super short.darn.last yr we had so many things to do for campaigning.including the cheerleading thingy which costed so much time.but it was fun yea.haha.the times with the red tie n the tag.haha.but so much has changed since then.basically everything.maybe it's juz our perspective abt stuff.haha.perhaps.lolx.
juz some tots here.how i wished i had not known some stuff.it freaks me out sometimes.especially when u're ard.sorry if i've hurt ya.n another matter.i guess friction between pple is unavoidable when pple are working tgt with too long.this did not occur to me personally but some pple i see.haha.haiz.quite sad ar.
anw.this is to all.ct 1 is over.dun be so bothered abt the aftermath k.cos ct 2 is there waiting for us to conquer.jia you.to those who've made some very impt life decisions.well wishes to u guys.
1life.liveit.noregrets.

bye cts!

2005-03-23T06:47:00.000-08:00

hahaha.common tests are over.week(s) of mugging n it's over in 3 days.haha.worth it?dunno leh.dun think my mugging paid off cos quite dead for most papers.dunno lar.see how lor.play a bit now if not no more chances le.dun think i'll do very well for this cts but who cares?unless it's so bad tt i have to drop subs.u never know lor but later den think abt tt lar.
haha.think gonna crash orientation tmr.haha.so fun!orientation once more!yea.gonna see some familar faces together with unfamilar faces.haha.

phy...

2005-03-21T03:17:00.000-08:00

haha.ought to be mugging for econs right now.haha.but haiz.dun care lar.phy paper is over n it's over for me i guess too.quite screwed lar.pple think easy.not easy for me lor.ok.guess i didnt study enuff or didnt study correctly.but i spent the whole march holidays mugging in the jurong regional library.literally it's my 2nd home le.haha.sianz.dunno lar.still hoping for the best.cya.all the best for other papers.2 down.3 to go!

mug!

2005-03-18T08:05:00.000-08:00

haha.shdnt be here lor but ya.too stressed sia after so much mugging.tried to mug more in terms of content but LDMR never fails to set in.sianz.hafta force myself to read.at least stare at the notes n hopefully something gets in n when the qn appears b4 me,hopefully i can rmb the pics n better still the paragraphs of words on the notes to help me anw the qn.haha.really spent my whole week at my 2nd home-jurong east regional library.from as early as the opening of the library to as late as the closing hr of the place.crazy le.my friends n i can suddenly burst out in laughter while reading notes.haha.really mad le.haha.*proceeds to wear my jacket from the front n tie the two sleeves together at the back(act as if i'm from IMH)lolx.haha.hmm.read n read n read.laugh n laugh n laugh.pple muz think tt we're public nuisence.haha.too bad.thanx to common test.
i really dunno leh.mug le like never mug lidat.seem to have nth in my brain(or do i have one in the 1st place?-i dunno).bleahx.i'm no longer as confident as b4.everything is uncertain to me.
ever since dunno when i think i've lost my confidence in maths.cant seem to solve any question i encounter.argh.this is no good lor cos science subs involve maths too.dunno lar.last 2 days left.haha.hopefully sth will get in today.
gotta go back to my chemo-phy-math(e)cons le.lucks for all those taking cts too. =)

today!

2005-03-09T03:42:00.000-08:00

haha.wasnt in the correct mood today.dun know why but ya.juz feel veh sian lor.haiz.maybe cos common test is round the corner.so sian.so much to do but so little time n energy.sianz.den after assembly one councillor-wanna-be came up to me n ask where is the ogl meeting held today.i had to admit i didnt know so i juz told him frankly.so he asked me as a councillor how can i not know anything.great.i was taken aback by it.seriously.suddenly my mind blanked out.dunno y.but seriously.maybe it was my fault not knowing where n when the meeting will be held.but as a councillor-wanna-be,u ought to be paying attention to the announcements to find out for urself the relevant details.u're the one running for council.NOT ME.haiz.it's kinda sad tt sometimes we really dunno wad's going on.tt's the problem of working in large groups.this is reality.come on.haiz.oso dunno wad to say le.
sort of lost the motivation to study now.dunno why.maybe cos holidays r coming.so will tend to push everything to the holidays.but i know it's too late cos there's way too much for me to catch up.bleah.save me.quite worried abt my results.i appear to be nonchalant abt it but inside still kinda worried lar cos i dun wanna drop my s papers.haiz.dunno lar.so irritating.
anw.today is brent's birthday.haha.Happie Bday Brent!haha.hope u like the stuff we got for u.me n rard went round town searching for a suitable present 4 ya.haha.

2 weeks

2005-03-06T08:04:00.000-08:00

hey.effectively there's only 2 weeks left to common tests.haiz.n everything is undone.maths cannot make it.econs dun understand.chem cannot remember conditions n reactions.phy cannot visualise n dunno wad eqn to use.conclusion.god bless me lor.haha.
O level results came out finally.congrats to the J1s who did well.quite a number of 6 pointers.hmm.not bad.to those who didnt perform up to expectations.dun give up cos it's only the Os.dun really indicate ur capability.maybe u're better in other areas.go discover ur potential!never say die.it's the time of the year again.some leaving nj for greener pastures.some going to other colleges.it's all normal.haha.good luck to those leaving.hope u'll find somewhere u like.though i think any college is the same cos if u're good,u're good anywhere.tt was my mentality when i was young.i sort of realised tt environment plays a role in shaping someone's future.maybe not a heavy role but it certainly helps if u're in a good environment.haha.
A level results came out on friday too.haha.went into the hall to check ard.got so darn stressed cos almost all the seniors got 3 or 4 As.argh.scary sia.if i wanna get this kinda results,much more needs to be done.haiz.how to catch up?!?i have no clue.i dun even know wad i wanna do in future.someone guide me pls.for me to see the light at the end of this long tunnel.
last week was oso interviews of the 38th student council applicants.quite interesting.haha.not tt we're mean.juz wanted to test their reactions mah.juz like wad our seniors did to us.haha.thinking abt it.think i did quite badly for my own interview.as in not the very impressive kind lor.haha.lucky tt i got through lor.haha.council term's ending soon.sad to say tt but tt's the truth.it has to come one day.not looking forward to the day though.
enough said.back to reality.mugging?haha.
I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think
I don't look
But deep inside in the corner of my mind
I'm attached to you

I'm weak
It's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

You don't know
What you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak
It's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try, anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try, anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

wake up call for me

2005-02-27T06:39:00.000-08:00

heyz.one week after chingay le.haha.havent really settled down yet.bleah.lots of tests last week.didnt do well in them.haiz.didnt even pass them lor.gonna kenna from teachers soon.n the stressed thingy is common test is coming really soon.haiz.die.muz mug le.haha.
anw.all the best for the year ones.esp to chee qing n cherie.results coming out tmr.haha.i know how u guys feel cos i felt the same way last yr.haha.juz leave it to fate lor.dun take it too hard.it's juz paper qualifications.the real impt thing is wad u r inside.n ur potential.so long as u've put in ur best n u've stretched urself,give urself a pat on ur back.dun have to feel soo sad.at most juz for a while,den pick urself up n continue ur studying career.success is a measure of how well u pick urself up after a setback,not how well u do in anything.haha.hope to see u guys in sch even after 1st term.
haha.went all the way to airport to mug with pei pei n bingz.haha.so so lor.not very productive but at least got some work done.haha.airport so far away for me.haha.made a pact with them to mug all over s'pore.1st was airport at the east,next is jurong east in the west.den woodlands in the north n finally harbourfront in the south.haha.interesting.hope can last till common test.haha.i seriously need help for maths n phy.die.chem i'll leave it to my memory to rmb the organic stuff.bleah.econs depends on essay lor.hope to pass.haha.the worse thing is phy s got paper lor.chem still dunno.die.dun even know wad to expect den they throw us a test liao.prepared to get kicked out le.bleah.hope this week is better.elections starting.haha.1st round.interview.interesting to see the juniors go through wad we went through last yr.reminds me of the good old days.council term's gonna end real soon.gonna miss council like mad i think.haiz.but wad has to come has to come.sooner or later.does it make a difference?i dunno.back to mugging(as if).=P